Guest guest Posted April 30, 2003 Report Share Posted April 30, 2003 I woke up in a perfectly awful mood today. And I'm not surprised ... yesterday I went to observe 3-year old preschool classrooms at my county mrdd school. Despite my best efforts, I wallowed in a highly depressive mood last night ... which I also expected. Each time I take a step forward towards addressing Jordan's needs (hiring therapists, getting him in EI preschool, MFE planning meeting, etc), I end up feeling blue, depressed, " why me? " " woe is me " kinda of attitude. The next day I'm a bitch, because I literally feel at the end of my rope, like it's stretched so tight it's gonna snap. Is there a light at the end of this tunnel?????? I'm not even talking about " cures " for my son ... though, if anyone has a magic want they can wave I'll give you everything I own to wave it over Jordan. No, seriously, I'm talking about for myself. I want to be able to function in my son's best interest without the " crash & burn " effect happening after every step. This is the part of the " rollercoaster " that I'm really having trouble handling. I want acceptance without giving up, you know? I'm in for a rocky rocky road if I can't figure out how to handle this ... he goes to special needs preschool in the fall and I have all the meetings, forms, tests, observations to do between now and then. I'm gonna go nuts if I'm this depressed after each and every one of these steps. Debbie with twins, who is once again in a " Why me? Why Jordan? Why Autism? " crappy-assed mood again. - Jordan (ASD) 2.5yo - (NT) 2.5yo Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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