Update

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Well went in for chemo treatment #9 yesterday but her count was

low so they put it off until next week. She's ready to get them over

and actually was a little bit bummed that they couldn't do it. The

doctor told us at our previous treatment appointment that if she had

1 more left at the end of the year she could skip it without any

problem. Don't know if we should, but do they really know that it

should be exactly 12 or should it be more or less? Has any research

indicated that 12 is the magic number?

Last night felt a small lump on her left breast. I felt it and

it immediately threw me into a panic. Is this something serious or

what? Shouldn't the chemo stop any cancer from growing anywhere in

her body? My mother had one less than a year ago and it turned out

to be absolutely nothing, but with already having colon cancer

isn't she more proned to other types of cancer? I asked her to call

her gynecologist today and set up an appointment for a mamogram but

she said that she felt it was nothing and that she would wait for 1

week and if it was still there she would call. I asked her again

today whether the lump (feels like it is smaller than a pea) was

still there and she said yes. She located it and guided my hand to

it. I told her that we needed to get this checked out immediately

but again she said she wanted to wait 1 week. She said " Shouldn't

the chemo kill any cancer in my body? " I told her that it should but

there is always that possibility of it still growing somewhere else.

I said that it might be nothing but wouldn't it be safer to find out

that it was nothing than to sit around hoping?

I'm not sure whether it is a lump or just something in her vein or

something. She has been taking coumadin which is a blood thinner so

it should keep any clots from forming. But she did tell me today

that she ran out. We'll definately get more tomorrow before we come

home.

My mind is racing with the thoughts that this just isn't fair. Why

should someone so loving and caring have to suffer through more and

more of this agony? She often wonders whether God is punishing her

for something she did, and I tell her that God would not punish you

and that this was a test of your strength. She is strong, but a

setback like this could hurt her resolve to fight this thing.

Well we go in on the 7th for the appointment with the surgeon

concerning her cyst. Hopefully it will be a simple process that she

can recover from quickly. Then we schedule the surgery and see how

it turns out.

Dan &