Deb and Ingrid....

[Guest guest]

Hi there!! Are you two ok?

Haven't heard from you...I miss you....Hope everything is alright.

love and prayers.

Lydia

[Guest guest]

Thank you, . I can understand how you feel. Well, almost.

I'm glad that you saw the doctor and take your medicine as advised.

The weight gain hit me, too. I was doing so well with my weight

loss. From April to September I had lost 20 pounds. Although it

wasn't too much, I was proud of myself. Then just during the past

three weeks I have gained about five. When I get stressed out, I

grab stuff that I shouldn't. Tonight I ate a brownie after dinner. I

am so bad. LOL I'm going to have to start over again and use my

treadmill every day. A friend told me that walking can be very

helpful for things other than weight loss, such as anxiety or

depression, etc. I have been in a funky mood, so walking could

definitely help me.

Thanks for reminding me I'm not alone! We are all in this together.

Hope you have a good week. Still a few days to go until the weekend.

Praying for everyone.

Take care,

Deb

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>

> Deb,

> I understand not being able to sleep. After my mom started her

treatment for

> the first time I began having problems. At first, I figured it

would work

> its self out but My sleep patterns are still messed up and it will

be a year in

> nov. I started gaining weight (which I so did not need) and would

have crying

> moments. I also was angry and so dang scared. I just couldn't

cope. For

> the first time ever, with a little help from my kids, I was

encourage to get a

> little help from the doc. So, now I take lexapro and I have to

say its been a

> help.

> I hope things start looking up for you, just remember your not

alone.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi, Ingrid. No, I'm not leaving the group. I love you all. I have

just been really sleepy during the day from the insomnia at night.

God willing I will get over this. But it may take a while. I am

hoping when the clocks change at the end of this month it might

help. Will we get an extra hour of sleep? I think so. haha

Yes, the cancer affects every one, in different ways. Our middle

son, , lives 97 miles away from us. He never calls and Sam was

complaining to me that our own son does not even care about him as

much as neighbors and friends do. The doctor calls Sam more than

does! I talked with our son about it. I said, even if you

don't want to call your dad, even if you hate him, he loves you and

he wants to hear your voice. said he loves his dad, but he is

having a hard time to cope with this cancer, surgery, chemo and

radiation. It is all so unpleasant. Unpleasant is my word. He said

something else. LOL He said he tries not to think about it, and that

is why he never calls. called Sam the next day and he told me

that he is going to call his dad more often.

Ingrid, you are right. We have to talk about things. Our family is

struggling with this, but I do believe that we are talking more, and

with God's help we can overcome this. Thanks for your prayers. xoxoxo

~Deb from KS

> >

> > Hi, Lydia. Hi, everyone. Sorry to worry you. Sam is ok. He does

not

> have any problems from the chemo/radiation yet. He just started

week

> two on yesterday. The doctor said the side effects begin after the

> second week. Thank you for your prayers. We need them

desperately.

> > I have just not been feeling well, and haven't been able to read

> all the group messages. I belong to five groups and I had to leave

> one of them because I couldn't keep up with the emails. Maybe some

> day I will join it again.

> >

> > My problem has been stress, because I am not sick really. It is

not

> serious or anything, just aches in the back and neck and shoulder

> pains. And for the past 12 days, since the day before my husband

got

> his cath port implanted, I have been having trouble sleeping.

Every

> night I go to sleep later and later. I finally sleep sometime

between

> 3:00 am and 7:30 am. So I sleep late, and that is not a problem

> because Sam likes his time alone to work on the computer and call

> people on the phone. He makes his own breakfast of whatever he

wants

> and when I wake up I make something for him. He seems to be eating

> four smaller meals a day instead of three. That is probably best

for

> him.

> >

> > Of course sleep in the day time is not great, because I wake up

> when someone makes noise in the kitchen or a door slams. When the

> phone rings, sometimes I have to answer it because Sam is in the

> bathroom again. I feel so lousy like I am a college student again,

> staying up all night long to study for a final exam. A friend of

mine

> recommended that I take melatonin so I can sleep at night, because

it

> is much cheaper than prescription sleeping pills. I bought some

> melatonin from a vitamin company, but so far I haven't taken it

yet.

> I am kind of worried if it will be habit forming and this is

> something that I would regret when I become addicted to it. Maybe

I

> will take it tonight. I'm still not sure.

> >

> > To tell you the truth, I have been crying some times and

sometimes

> I feel overwhelmed with Sam's situation. I cannot imagine how Sam

must feel, knowing all this is happening

> to him. Is he scared and worried about the chemo and radiation but

he

> doesn't show it to me? I am scared and worried and it is not

> happening to me, it is happening to him. Sometimes I wish it was

> happening to me so I would not have to see him suffer with this.

It

> is so hard to watch him in pain and feeling miserable.

> >

> > Anyway, when it is my turn on the computer, I have been

sleeping.

> haha I am out of my rhythm! I feel kind of guilty about not

answering

> the messages, like I am letting the group down, but since I don't

> know much and don't really have anything to contribute, I thought

> nobody would miss me. I was wrong about that. LOL

> >

> > I'm going to bed now! My eyes are almost shut already! I am

praying

> for you all and hoping you have a good day. xoxoxo

> >

> > Take care,

> > ~Deb from KS