22 year old male with stage 4 colon cancer

November 21, 2005

Well I had been having health problems for about a year. I put off

going to see a doctor because I did not want to get the scope done

because of my own fears. So i finally broke down last week and had

to go to the emergency room. I was given some Barruim (Stuff they

give u when conducting a ct scan) After waiting for about four

hours the doctors could not do a scan because the liqud i was given

would not go down. Then they did a scope and they found a large

grownt in my rectal/colon area. The mass has grown all around my

colon and actuly closed it off. Everyone always said i was full of

shit. And that's what was happing to me. They then found that the

mass did contain cancer. And then i recived a PET scan and the have

found that the caner has spread to my lympnodes in my shoulder.

Some Docotors say that all i can do is have hope find a support

group and make my peace with the lord. The tell me this beacuse

some feel there is no chance of me living. Other Doctors are Trying

to treat me with xeloda (cemo thearpy) and radiation treatmeants 5

days a week for 5 weeks. and from what i understand about this

treatmeant is that the cemo is killing me they just hope that i can

out live the cancer. And they are going to use all the drugs they

think my body can handle untill they almost kill me or the cancer

leaves my body. Im only 22 Years my life is a fucking soap opera.

I feel good for now i have a good amount of energy. I don't feel

sick and i think that a good thing. I think the best thing i can do

is stay positve but it's hard and im scared that im going to die.

im not worried about dieing it's just a part of life i just don't

want my family and friends to watch me suffer and all that sad

shit. I guess im doing this becuase i want to know if anyone has

had a case like mine or knows anything that can help me im trying to

stay stronge and be like im going to beat this. But it's hard to

stay that way all the time. I NEED HOPE, any hope that anyone can

give or any ideas about diffrent methods of treating this would be

great.

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