Re: Deb and Ingrid....

[Guest guest]

Deb,

I understand not being able to sleep. After my mom started her treatment for

the first time I began having problems. At first, I figured it would work

its self out but My sleep patterns are still messed up and it will be a year in

nov. I started gaining weight (which I so did not need) and would have crying

moments. I also was angry and so dang scared. I just couldn't cope. For

the first time ever, with a little help from my kids, I was encourage to get a

little help from the doc. So, now I take lexapro and I have to say its been a

help.

I hope things start looking up for you, just remember your not alone.

[Guest guest]

Hi, Lydia. Hi, everyone. Sorry to worry you. Sam is ok. He does not have any

problems from the chemo/radiation yet. He just started week two on yesterday.

The doctor said the side effects begin after the second week. Thank you for your

prayers. We need them desperately.

I have just not been feeling well, and haven't been able to read all the group

messages. I belong to five groups and I had to leave one of them because I

couldn't keep up with the emails. Maybe some day I will join it again.

My problem has been stress, because I am not sick really. It is not serious or

anything, just aches in the back and neck and shoulder pains. And for the past

12 days, since the day before my husband got his cath port implanted, I have

been having trouble sleeping. Every night I go to sleep later and later. I

finally sleep sometime between 3:00 am and 7:30 am. So I sleep late, and that is

not a problem because Sam likes his time alone to work on the computer and call

people on the phone. He makes his own breakfast of whatever he wants and when I

wake up I make something for him. He seems to be eating four smaller meals a day

instead of three. That is probably best for him.

Of course sleep in the day time is not great, because I wake up when someone

makes noise in the kitchen or a door slams. When the phone rings, sometimes I

have to answer it because Sam is in the bathroom again. I feel so lousy like I

am a college student again, staying up all night long to study for a final exam.

A friend of mine recommended that I take melatonin so I can sleep at night,

because it is much cheaper than prescription sleeping pills. I bought some

melatonin from a vitamin company, but so far I haven't taken it yet. I am kind

of worried if it will be habit forming and this is something that I would regret

when I become addicted to it. Maybe I will take it tonight. I'm still not sure.

To tell you the truth, I have been crying some times and sometimes I feel

overwhelmed with Sam's situation. I have been considering taking some medication

to help me calm down. My friend mentioned Xanax, but I don't know if I would

ever take anything like that. I will have to discuss it with my doctor.

I cannot imagine how Sam must feel, knowing all this is happening to him. Is he

scared and worried about the chemo and radiation but he doesn't show it to me? I

am scared and worried and it is not happening to me, it is happening to him.

Sometimes I wish it was happening to me so I would not have to see him suffer

with this. It is so hard to watch him in pain and feeling miserable.

Anyway, when it is my turn on the computer, I have been sleeping. haha I am out

of my rhythm! I feel kind of guilty about not answering the messages, like I am

letting the group down, but since I don't know much and don't really have

anything to contribute, I thought nobody would miss me. I was wrong about that.

LOL

I'm going to bed now! My eyes are almost shut already! I am praying for you all

and hoping you have a good day. xoxoxo

Take care,

~Deb from KS

milyandtheworld wrote:

Hi there!! Are you two ok?

Haven't heard from you...I miss you....Hope everything is alright.

love and prayers.

Lydia

Visit your group " colon_cancer_support " on the web.

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[Guest guest]

Deb from KS, Don't you even dare thinking about leaving us. Leave

another group!!!! I refuse to let that idea into your head.

You and Sam really need to talk and you need to tell him you are

scared of loosing him. Maybe he will open up to you.

To be honest I feel at times that my husband does not understand

what I am feeling. But then maybe he does and does not want to hurt

me. I don't know. All I have been told is that the cancer affects the

entire family and everyone reacts differently. Just have to try to

share what we feel.

You are very stressed out. This is so very natural. Praying for all

caregivers. They have a very tough part in this. Love, Ingrid

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> Lydia

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