Re: Re: Having a Bad Time/Jane

November 28, 2005

In a message dated 11/28/2005 10:56:26 PM Eastern Standard Time,

joshua1v9@... writes:

It is so difficult sometimes to stay positive. I also had surgery then

chemo and then mets and a second cancer was found. I had chemo again

that worked pretty well but not completely. I started my third batch

of chemo and it has kicked my butt. The first session of cpt-11 was

not bad but the second was horrible. I am still sick 2 weeks from

treatment. The diarrhea and vomiting have been awful. I had to go

twice for fluids then went for a head ct because the dr thought I had

brain mets I was so sick. I lost 12 lbs so far. I am able to eat a

bit now but still have the diar. and occassional vomiting. I am due

for another treatment next week and do not know if I will do it. I

want to move near my family but can't get packed if I am so sick. My

15yo just moved out to be with her father. That was a hard thing to do

but it is for the best. I want to liquidate my household but need to

be stronger to do that. I am positive, I do not think I am ready to go

yet but when you get so sick it is hard to keep thinking that way.

Prayer and faith help tremendously. So does hearing how gracious

others on the list are like Narice and Donnell. They give me

tremendous strength. Thank you all.

Jane

Oh, Jane... I so wish I could be closer to you and help you.... can't

imagine having to go through all this by yourself. Maybe since you are still

so

sick, they will give you a chemo " vacation " for another week, so you can gain

some strength. The diarrhea and vomiting alone will make you just terribly

weak. Are you drinking tons of water to flush out the chemo and gatorade??

Your electrolytes have to be off!! You are a tough cookie...and I so admire

you. Not sure I have any strength left to share right now, sweetie...but

am sending tons of positive thoughts...and you will be in the top 5 on my

prayer list tonite!!!

Where are you and where is your family?? Can someone come help you?? I

just want to crawl in to this computer and come to your house!!! Hate it

when I am a helpless!!!

Lots of hugs and prayers, Donelle

Caregiver to Glenn

November 28, 2005

I am with Donelle on this Jane. The B's need to visit Jane and help her out

here. If only we could hop in the car and head her way.

Well it might do you more good to take another week to get yourself feeling

better before they do another round of chemo.

If it is that hard on you, they should adjust the meds a bit...

You are in my prayers. Big Hugs and Prayers Jolene