Kaye

[Guest guest]

Thanks for the post, it is hard to be positive when you nothing but

bad news facing you. When I was your nurse I did not know I had

this condition, they too were saying it was IBS, which I dont doubt

I have. I have had this pain since I was a child. Your also right,

sometimes knowledge is not so good to have. Being in the medical

field a simple headache can become a brain tumor overnight..lol.

Never underestimate the power of ignorant bliss. A few weeks ago

another member was feeling very much the was I do now. I remember

telling her that we will go through feelings much the same as one

would when finding out they have a terminal illness or mourning the

loss of a loved one. I think I am mourning the loss of hope, hope

that I will be pain free. Without hope I have no desire to live in

any capacity. I think I will get over this little bout of

depression and I think it is normal to feel like this sometimes.

Especially when I was so excited about returning to my normal life.

I guess I will need to find a new standard as to how I

define " normal life " . I am really touched that you recall my care

for you so warmly. That is the only reason I became a nurse.

doctors treat the condition and nurses treat the human response to

the condition. Thank you Kaye, I'll remember your words for ever.

That spell I had friday evening scared me and my son, I have never

felt anything that bad before. I fear that it means I am getting

worse and that is hard to accept. Thank you again. I'm glad I was

there for you and even more so that you are here for me.