Decisions! Decisions!

[Guest guest]

Hi Chrissy!

I'm glad you sound a bit brighter to-day! I'm glad you're confident

that your insurance will cover things relatively easily. getting a

decent night's sleep makes such a difference doesn't it? Do you know

how long the tube will have to stay in? Is it helping the

pancreatic pain?

Did you mean my TP decision or my retirement decisions??!! The TP

is not on the cards for the moment. I'm going to wait until summer

to judge how I've been over a full year before I think about that

again....unless I have a sudden and rapid deterioration of course.

On retirement....well!! Just now I think I'd like to do one more

year. I've been working from home to-day on the bid. (I gain an hour

and a half by staying at home just by cutting out my journeys. In

addition, I can't be interrupted....at least in theory! Actually,

three colleagues have already phoned me at home to-day!) I will be

sending it to the DfES (Dept. for Education and Science) half way

through March. We got the money BTW. A wealthy local whose daughters

went to the school years ago gave us the final £4,000 yesterday.

We're now getting in funding beyond the essential £50,000 so we can

get a few extras!! It has been an exhausting but absorbing task and

is almost finished. We break up for half-term tomorrow and I'll go

into school. I'll also go in on Saturday to go through all the

costings for our bid with the Head. I want him to be familiar with

all aspects of what I'm saying we are going to do if we get the

Govt. funding!!!! So you see, I still enjoy the work and am trying

to pretend I'm not getting old (58 on Tuesday)!

On Monday I'm going to London for most of the week. My son and his

wife are away skiing in Italy so we're borrowing (I mean " looking

after " !!) their house. Look out in the news for two eccentric

Liverpudlians (people from Liverpool) painting the capital city red

next week! The way Jim (husband) rampages through those bookshops

should make international headlines......not to mention my savage

behaviour when I can't afford to buy everything I want!! All this

depends on my being well enough. I've stocked up to-day with all my

medication. I should still be able to go on the net in the evenings

and, sadly, I will NOT be too tiddly after the evenings out to do

so....no longer being able to enjoy a couple of glasses of wine with

a meal! If my pain is very bad, I'll just relax in the house while

Jim goes out and about a bit. My younger son will come over from

Cambridge on Tuesday and we'll go out for my birthday meal. I should

be OK with my painkillers even if I have a bad day or two but I've

learnt that you never know with CP when pain or nausea will ruin

everything. I suppose if we really enjoy the week, I'll be thinking

how nice it would be to be free all the time and not have work.

The thing I hate most about work is having to get up early, 6.30 am.

I'm a night owl and never go to bed early so I hate getting up much

before 8.00 am. I LOVE my lie-in at the week-end but I suppose it

will seem less attractive when I can stay in bed as long as I want

when I'm retired. The other thing is that my overall condition

could deteriorate at any time and I might well regret not having

retired earlier. I'll be getting that diabetes any day now from what

my docs said.

Well, Chrissy, thank you for keeping touch. I always look forward to

reading your posts. My husband sends good wishes; I told him about

your possible TP.

Take care,

Love,

Fliss