Re : Can't seem to shake this guilt

[Guest guest]

Happy New Year from 2004 here in UK to my American friends living

just a bit behind the times in 2003!!! It's foul weather

here....very strong winds and driving rain...not a bit like earlier

on when I had my walk in the park. Some of the city celebrations

around the country have been cancelled. I'm off to bed now as I've

been in pain this evening.

Chrissy, I can't find the words to say but please don't be sad to-

night. New Year always makes my most difficult emotions, sorrows,

regrets, fears etc. come to the surface. You have no regrets about

how you acted yourself; that's the main thing. Do you actually know

your condition is hereditary? If not, it might be better not to say

anything anyway. Could anything be done to avoid the condition

developing in any of the next generation? If not, they might be

better not knowing anything at this stage.

I think it is a cause of sadness to you that family relationships

are not as you would have wanted them to be. There is nothing I can

say apart from the fact that I am sorry. You must remember that you

are coping with the worry and pain of your condition, facing going

back to work etc. etc. That is bound to make you more susceptible to

all kinds of feelings. Did you stay at home this evening while the

family went out? If so, that will also make you feel low. You need

to take care of yourself first of all.

I wish you happier thoughts and feelings tomorrow and throughout

2004. Think of all the wonderful things you do for other people,

your own family, your patients and people on this board. You give a

lot to a lot of people, Chrissy.

With love,

Fliss

[Guest guest]

Happy New Years Fliss!

Here is wishing you a new year full of good times and the absence of

pain! I read you have decided to not undergo the Total Pancreatectomy

at this time. I never shared my opinion of what you should do when you

were soul searching because it isn't relevant what I would do or not

do and I did not want to impact your choice in a negative way. In your

set of cirumstances I also would NOT undergo a TP. And now having done

it I can say for sure, it is not something to undergo unless it is

clearly needed. When there was doubt whether or not I would need it, I

avoided it. Only when it was clear, painfully clear, 15 attacks clear,

that the attacks were not going to stop did I go for it.

Blessings and happy times!

Love,

Bert

> Happy New Year from 2004 here in UK to my American friends living

> just a bit behind the times in 2003!!!