Re: How is Bert?

[Guest guest]

Hi,

Fliss thank you for asking about me. It is a warm feeling to be

thought about.

Unfortunately I had to go back to the ER a few days ago because I

got hit with another wave of pain that was too intense to deal with

at home. I was treated and released. I have moved farther north

recently so I am going to a new hospital for ER care and they are

obviously intimidated by my case. If they can get me to say I feel

less pain then they boot me as soon as they can telling me to get in

touch with my specialist ASAP and they leave it at that. I don't

really want to be admitted either so if I feel like I can walk out

of the ER without being doubled over that seems like the right

thing. But I have nagging symptoms that are wearing me down. I have

general muscle aches and cramps which are probably caused by

elevated liver enzymes. I can't sleep. I have had insomnia plenty of

times but this is like far more intense. I cannot fall asleep. I

manage to drift off about 8 or 9 AM and seem to hit one dream cycle

and wake up jarringly. I guess it could be depression or again liver

enzymes messing with my body's balance. I am out of pain meds and

have been for a few days but I have overused them recently so I

taking this as a detox period.

The 29th I get the CT. The 14th I have my appointment with the

surgeon. I guess I am not in a risky level of liver enzyme

production, but I do not feel right at all. In some ways and this is

probably just rationalization I feel like an old case of

pancreatitis would be better because I would have a process to go

through that I understand and has a light at the end of the tunnel.

But then again, no, that hurts a lot. Hehehe. Having thoughts as

those let me know this is impacting my mindset in a bad way.

With the move and getting hit with this issue right at the heat of

the move I have totally destroyed the continuity of my plans. I feel

badly for my wife, I have snapped at her a couple of times out of

displaced guilt. I am supposed to be improving now and she deserves

that for us. This is supposed to be a new a start. A new place,

moving up, so on. And here I go managing to muck it all up.

I am sorry. This is a time of year when people are grateful for

life, family, and friends. I should not be bringing people down.

I hope you are all feeling well and have a great holiday season!

thanks,

Bert

> Has anyone heard how Bert is doing?

> If you're reading this, Bert, I do hope all went well and that you

> are feeling OK, physically and emotionally.

> Blessings and best wishes for the holiday period.

> Fliss