Arizona Heat saying Hello

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Greetings from Tucson, Arizona! I have been " peeking " in for about 3 weeks

now and would like to thank you all for your honest sharing. You have all

helped me to make a decision to change my life. I submitted Dr. R's letter

10 days ago and am working on my package now. I have my physical Wed. and

then I have to suffer thru the Pelvic and boob squish exams - I dread that

part. Anyway I am 5'5 " and 315Lbs - " thankfully " hahahaha -I carry it all on

top - I have the Biggest boobs in the west! I wouldn't know my own feet if

they were introduced to me! I guess it's easy to see that laughter is my

survival mechanism. I have a quick mind and a smart mouth to go along with

it. I am a successful business woman who is married to the most wonderful

man in the workd. We cannot have children so have agreed to stay children

as long as possible. We are 2 Italien psycho's who love to laugh and be

jolly. It's just that, we both want me to live. My weight at 38 years old

has me in and out of the hospital on a regular basis. - now I have asthma -

now I have diabetes - now I have High blood pressure and I even got too fat

for my own skeliton! It's true- I sat on my couch to watch a movie and heard

the crackling like I had sat on a bag of frito's - No fritos - it was just my

back breaking - I literally crushed a disc- just sitting down. My husband

dresses me at this point and he does all the housekeeping and shopping. I

tell you, I am too strong willed to be this incapacitated! I can't stand it

any more. So Dr. R. take my intestines - take them all - Please set me free

from myself - before I kill me - I swear if I was doing to another person -

what I have done to myself- I would be sent directly to jail!

Why I wrote today was becasue I was touched by Ginny's letter (moonvi) when

she talked about her flying experience. My God, I felt tears in my eyes!

Imagine, Traveling, I want to learn to dance, I want to try to roller blade -

looks like so much fun! and amusement parks! Just to be able to walk thru

the mall or stand in line - Being able to go to a dinner and not be terrifed

that I won't fit in the booth - or that the chair will be wiggly. To be able

to use a public bathroom and not lay my forehead on the tile floor to clean

myself- I've always wondered what people must have thought of that one.

The Final reason I wrote was, I called my insurance to see if they had

decided anything yet- and got into a conversaton with the agent. She was

asking me all these questions and admitted it was for herself she was asking.

She told me that several years ago her neice at age 26 was over 600lbs and

got one of the old time gastric bypasses - after 2 years she was down to the

low 300's and had just had a baby and - God, this is so sad - but she died of

a Heartattack. She said her Doctors said it was becasue she lost weight so

fast her heart couldn't take it. I though about this all day and I thought

of all of you out there frustrated in getting down to Dr. R's 350lb mark and

it just convinced me even further that he knows exactly what he is doing.

Anyway- Nice to meet all of you and like most of you- cant' wait to get to

Durham!

AzHeat (Debby)