been a long time

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hello all, i have been away for a while. my health hasn't been very

good lately and my computer has been on the fritz.

my name is michelle i live in washington and i have had a whipple in

97.

actually my story is very long but i can not sit here long enough to

tell you the entire thing today, hopefully soon i will be able to.

i am just feeling really down right now and know that i can speak

openly and honestly here.

i have been under a tremendous amount of stress lately, my grandma

passed away dec. 18th and the memory of my fathers murder on dec.

23rd 1991 always gets me blue.

also i have been fighting the state to get my oxycontin rx's filled,

i have filed for a hearing that will take place on the 22nd.

all of these stressful things i think combined together have not

helped. my gastro told me that i have constant smoldering

pancreatitis but at times it flares really bad.

that happened to me thursday morning at 5a.m. I woke up in

excruciating pain and vomiting. my husband called my mom and she came

and took me to my local ER. i am not bragging or anything like that

but usually when i am hurting i can move around on my own and walk,

although it does hurt i can generally motivate on my own. however

thurs. my husband had to carry me to the van because i was not able

to move on my own. when my mom and i reached the ER my poor mom who

has fibro had to carry me into the ER. the triage nurse who has seen

me several times before, this is a very small community, was an

absolute witch. she insisted that i walk over and do the admitting

papers at the desk, i just cried and told her i couldn't. she said i

have seen you here several times and you have always been able to

walk then. i was sobbing then threw up on the seats in the waiting

room. she then began to yell at me saying the bathroom was just down

the hall and that i could have made it if i tried.

anyway i finally got in a bed in the ER and they were trying to get

an IV started but i am very hard because i just do not have any veins

left. i begged the nurse to just give me the shot in my rump but she

insisted on getting an IV 3 hours later my mom was finally allowed to

come back with me i still had not been given any pain meds.

luckily they were changing shifts and a nurse came in and gave me

2mgs of dilaudid in my rump waited for the pain to ease a little then

found an IV sight in my foot.

i was released yesterday but feel like i should go back to the

hospital and wring that nurses neck. how can someone be in that line

of work that has no compassion, she was even in the room next to mine

talking about me to another person saying i was just there for the

drugs. my amalse was 900 and my lipase was 699. but i guess even that

is not enough for someone as mean as her.

sorry for ranting but i had to tell someone. thanks for lisening

hopefully i can get back and tell you all my story soon.

michelle evans, washington state