Robin

[Guest guest]

You remembered perfectly, even better then I do, made me cry; thank

you. You sound a lot like me; I was always very active and busy. I

am not as athletic as you. Going to schoool working raising a

family and all the other busy stuff I rarely sat still. I do

nothing now and I am so much more exhausted then when I was hectic.

I need to get stronger, maybe, I dont know.

I kind of had a similir situation with work. I had been vieing for

a promotion for some time. We have to meet certain specific

criterior to advance. They make it too difficult really, it would

take less time to get my Master's, but would be free. Excessive

unscheduled sick time, not keeping up with current trends in my

practice is making it impossible to meet the strict criterior. Not

to mention that I would need the endorsement of my supervisor and

she has already made several remarks about my position no longer

existing. Not that the dear woman was trying to add to my stress,

nooo not her.

Your little assistant sounds like an absolute dear too.... I dont

understand people sometimes. I dont think that I have ever

purposefully been cruel or hurtful to any body (that I haven't

married~~). I just dont understand people who have no sense of

altruism. That are so self centered and superficial that they can

not possibly see another person perspective; that lack empathy

entirely. My mind just doesn't understand that.

I am trying to get back into taking the vitamins and minerals. I

had quite a list but they were making me ill last summer and I

stopped, taken some here and there but nothing consistent yet. they

still refux back so I take them when I can. I dont take any pain

meds at work except advil. I was taking ultram, which did take the

edge off but made me sleepy. I'll take it at home. I have been

trying not to take the demerol when I have to work the next day,

only on the weekends. However this last week I have, 100mg in the

evening. I have miralax for constipation and it works very well;

since not taking demerol so much its not necessary at all. I do

take ativan, .5 to 1mg and try not to take that unless I am very

stressed.

Thanks for writing Robin and sharing so much of yourself. I really

appreciate that and looking for to hearing from you again.