How is all?

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Hi Friends:

This is " The Lost from Ohio " ! I've felt so lost and depressed

because I've been without the internet, (or a home phone, as a matter

of fact) and I've gotten so depressed not being able to get in

contact with all of you, my very best supporters in the world! Its

been since August, and I miss you all too much! I'm staying with my

lil'4 y/o nephew, this weekend while my sister & her new hubby

flew to florida for their 1st wedding anniv., and thought I'd just

check in & let you know I'm still kicking. I did get my SSI finally.

And I'll get the second half of my back settlement in Feb. and thats

when I'm going to get things set up again with my phone debt and what-

not. It was so hard living only on child support for those 2 years,

and I thought it would make life easier with the SSI, but its not.

Rent, utilities percentage of income payments and other stuff have

all gone up, and it all comes out about the same as before. It

sucks, big time!!! I was able to get a reliable car in Aug. when I

got the first half of my settlement, so at least I have that! And 2

weeks ago I moved into a safer part of town. Which where I was at

wasn't the best, it also wasn't as bad as most people think. I never

had any kind of major problems, but everyone told me I did. I just

get so tired of hearing the same things! I know I've worked myself

into a depression, but in Feb. I plan on splurging on myself for once

and buying myself a brand spankin' new laptop. Can't wait!

I don't really expect any replies to this msg., I won't be able to

get back on until Feb. to check anyways. I just wanted to let you

all know I think about this group everyday. I really do, and wish I

could get on & read about everyone & things going on in your world!

I will continue to do just that, think and send good things your

way. Lily keeps a good eye on me, and I'm thankful for that. Alot

of times I feel like I'm just pushing everyone away from me,

including my girls, and I'm not sure why I'm doing it. Its the

depression, right?!?!

I'll talk to you all in Feb!

Love ya,

P.S. I hope you all are doing ok for you,and have a great Christmas

and be safe! I love you!