. back to work.

[Guest guest]

Hey Jac; It was wonderful to see every one, well those who were

there. A lot of people had off for the holiday. There had been so

many changes and I was very rusty with my skills, thank goodness I

didn't have to do anything big. I am worried that I might not be

ready. When I got home, I made myself a half a sandwich and 2 bites

in I had the worse panc spasm ever. It was the worse, way over the

top. I dont cry from pain,usually, and I was buckeled over sobbing.

My girls were not home, only my son and I afraid I scared him quite

a bit. I hate that most of all. I have had a lot of attacks and

bad spells but Christ have mercy that was indescribable. Im just

glad it didn't happen at work because I would have collapsed and I

have worked through some intense pain. Jac, I dont know how much

more of this I can take. I have tried so hard to be strong and

positive; searching for my silver linings, and things just keep

getting worse. Sometimes I think my family would be better off if I

wasn't around, remove the burden from them. Let me be in peace.

Sorry to be so whiney, I'm probably just over tired. I hope things

are going well for you and the new year has started out

beautifully. Thanks for the positive words that make things a lot

better.

With love,

Chrissy

> Hi-ya , so you did get back to work, and i am glad you

have

> the week-end to rest,bet it was good for your ego to see your

> friend`s put a spring in your step eh!! You will have to be

carefull

> for awhile,and no pushing beds around.to much for your abdomen.

But

> bet it was great to be made to feel so special,you deserve it. Do

> you have yahoo messenger?? my yahoo add is, beattie55@y...

> Glad you had a good day, Take it easy, love from Jac.xox

[Guest guest]

Hi, was sorry to hear your first day was not so good, pain wise,

it`s such a shame, if you do have messenger yahoo or icq msn. I have

all three, as i chat to my sister`s on msn and yahoo, we have

webcam`s and microphones, so we can see and hear each other, no

typing!! you can chat with me any time, as long as you have either

of them. This is a horrid desease, and it does overtake your life

but if your mind is strong, it can not overtake your head.A strong

mind is a great asset, not to be snniffed at. You are a strong and

compassionate person,so i know you have a strong mind. I will be on

line later, download yahoo messenger and we can chat, my I.D.

beattie55yahoo.com Hope you are feeling alittle better,and have

been resting, take care, \\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\jac.xox