Realization of Depth of Issues with Neurosarcoidosis.

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Greg I have to write down everything cause my memory of all out of whack...I haven't been back in the group long but you haven't offended me.

-- Realization of Depth of Issues with Neurosarcoidosis.

I was diagnosed with Neurosarcoidosis in May of 2008. During this Hospitalization was tested for everything from Lupus to MS, before the diagnoses came down. I am sure alot of people has been thru that. I got better for awhile then was hit with flare up from Hades in August of 2008. I have been informed (for my memory is no longer good) that I was in a state of dematia at that time (did not where or when I was). It is now June 2009. As I look back over my life I see things now that I did or did not do, and I can not help to wonder if It was the neurosarcoidosis that caused my laps in judgements. Yhere are alot of things I did from 1993 to today that I can not explain or justify. I see things clearer now then I did then. Does this mean I am actually getting better. Can I really blame Neurosarcoidosis for these lasp of jugdements., or is that an easy way out. Well whatever I still blame myself for being weak and failing to correct those lasp in jugdements. My ex-wife, who I consider to be the best friend I will every know, is a very respected RN (she is working on her doctorate in Nursing) said she saw my first MRI of my Brain and clouding it showed scared her then and she is happy to hear of th improvement in the latest MRI. She beleives that I may have had Neurosarcoidosis since 1993 or longer and that it had effected my judgement during this time. So it is that I have come to a realization that Neurosarcoidosis has effected my life to a depth that I am still trying to get a handle on. Also it is with a heavy heart that I have apology to many people who i have hurt or wronged due to my lasps of judgements. Things have not been clear for over 15 years is coming to daylight if front of my face. It is as if I am awakening from a long sleep. Or maybe a nightmare. I am now working to correct my mistakes. It matters not if it was this d---- ole Sarc monster that caused al of this or not. It will only matter if I correct it or not. So to any out there I may have wronged please understand I want to correct it. Even tho I may not remember it at this time I will endeavor to correct all.

May Y'all be Blessed with Pain-Free days

Greg aka Krumdawg

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I was diagnosed with Neurosarcoidosis in May of 2008. During this

Hospitalization was tested for everything from Lupus to MS, before the diagnoses

came down. I am sure alot of people has been thru that. I got better for awhile

then was hit with flare up from Hades in August of 2008. I have been informed

(for my memory is no longer good) that I was in a state of dematia at that time

(did not where or when I was). It is now June 2009. As I look back over my life

I see things now that I did or did not do, and I can not help to wonder if It

was the neurosarcoidosis that caused my laps in judgements. Yhere are alot of

things I did from 1993 to today that I can not explain or justify. I see things

clearer now then I did then. Does this mean I am actually getting better. Can I

really blame Neurosarcoidosis for these lasp of jugdements., or is that an easy

way out. Well whatever I still blame myself for being weak and failing to

correct those lasp in jugdements. My ex-wife, who I consider to be the best

friend I will every know, is a very respected RN (she is working on her

doctorate in Nursing) said she saw my first MRI of my Brain and clouding it

showed scared her then and she is happy to hear of th improvement in the latest

MRI. She beleives that I may have had Neurosarcoidosis since 1993 or longer and

that it had effected my judgement during this time. So it is that I have come to

a realization that Neurosarcoidosis has effected my life to a depth that I am

still trying to get a handle on. Also it is with a heavy heart that I have

apology to many people who i have hurt or wronged due to my lasps of judgements.

Things have not been clear for over 15 years is coming to daylight if front of

my face. It is as if I am awakening from a long sleep. Or maybe a nightmare. I

am now working to correct my mistakes. It matters not if it was this d---- ole

Sarc monster that caused al of this or not. It will only matter if I correct it

or not. So to any out there I may have wronged please understand I want to

correct it. Even tho I may not remember it at this time I will endeavor to

correct all.

May Y'all be Blessed with Pain-Free days

Greg aka Krumdawg