Hi Randy

[Guest guest]

Hi there, Randy. This procedure will be no fun. I send you all my

good wishes and hope for the future. Did you ever get my message to

you after we met? To repeat, it was so wonderful to meet you. You

wrote a message about addiction after that and I never addressed it.

I did my dissertation on fat and sex and I had to address this

subject myself.You said you did not think that overeating was an

addiction because we have to eat. But anything can be an addiction

if you have a dependency on it that is tied to your feelings. We

need sex but some people are compulsive about it. Some of us are

compulsive about our eating. We are not hungry, we are just wanting

to pleasure ourselves with the taste of food. And sometimes no

amount is enough. It may not be a chemical addiction but it acts on

us the same. I used to go to OA and although I was an overeater, we

used and found completely relevant the AA stuff. I even decided in

the last few years that I was not a compulsive overeater and I have

to say that for about 10 years, I did not gain weight.(Of course i

almost weighed 300 LBS) But now that my food has been diminished and

my stomach is so limited, I find myself grazing a bit which is not a

good thing. I am wondering why I do this. I keep cherry tomatoes on

the counter and I grab one as I go by. Why? I keep shaved almonds in

a drawer and I grab a small amount as I go by. Why? I keep rye

crackers in the same drawer and grab a few as I go by. Why? Am I

hungry? Maybe. Maybe not, hard to tell. Is this an addiction? I

think so. Today I put everything away and told myself, " 3 meals a

day. " I know there is an empty part of me that wants to be filled up

or titilated. Is it an addiction?

I wanted to share these thoughts with you because you are so

elequent and thoughtful. I hope you can read this long paragraph.

You can answer me whenever you feel better. Love to you, Randy. Lilka