another thought for the day as the orientation comes near.........i have been

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every single dress size there is......from a size 2---when 17 yrs old

to now a 28.........really i have been every single size.....now i just

want to be healthy but the shallow part of me wants to look good

too...it is a bad feeling when people that have known me thru all the

sizes say " you used to be pretty " " what happened? " and the worst was

when going to a party and not being asked to dance by exactly the

same " boys " who used to ask me before and being left feeling like a

wallflower......i still had a good time dancing with the girls but of

course i couldn't help but notice......not a single guy would ask me to

dance......only the skinny girls would get asked......i never thought i

was pretty......to myself i thought i was ok looking when got

madeup.....now i dress with nice clothes because i want to feel

good....the people that meet me now they think i am attractive but i

keep telling them no i am not that i used to be attractive.......sorry

so long....something i had to get off my chest...while i still have one-

-haha......Damaris