sorry i am being a baby but i am getting worked up about this thursday ....

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when i have the first consult with the fremont gatriatic team.....i am

excited but scared...i have read the binder....i guess i feel lonely

to be going thru this by myself physically---it reminds me that my mom

is not here with me and she was my world and i know she would want me

to be happy and healthy but she is still not here...my father would be

here for me but he is in Texas, my sister is in Sacramento but i think

i would be better off without her here to take care of me because i

know she would get all frustrated...one of my dearest friends lives in

Sacramento and she is a nurse and she would take care of me but i

would have to go to Sacramento with her and i don't think the doctor

would let me after the surgery..i know i have your support and that

you guys are with me in net spirit...thanks for listening and i feel

better just writing it...........damaris