Re: Checking in...For Ron

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Hi Ron,

I am slowly moving in the right direction again. I was cavebound as

well this last winter...regaining the weight I lost last summer

(plus 10 lbs). I have lost the extra weight I gained and a few

more, but not quite to the point where I was last fall when I first

started to plateau. I have been out of commission for the last

three weeks. I had a bad case of the stomach flu over the Memorial

Day weekend...and as I was coming out of that I contracted a case of

cellulitus (bacterial infection of the skin) in my lower left leg.

I spent three nights in the hospital, then two weeks at home with my

feet up while getting IV and oral antibiotics. I still have three

days worth of the oral antibiotics left and am now back at work.

I started swimming again this last weekend, which feels great, and

have many projects around the house to keep my moving. So I am

feeling good about that.

I share your frustration about seeing people who started at the same

time, but were successful with their 10% and have had their

operations. Last month, I friend (who was impressed that I started

this last year) had her operation and has started her successful

recovery. While I am happy for her, I do feel frustrated with

myself as I started six months before her...so I should have been

operated on last winter...instead of in that damn cave. But its my

fault and I only have myself to kick on that.

So, I suppose we can kick each other since we aren't limber enough

to kick our own butts! ; )

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> > Hello everyone. I just wanted to check in and let you all know I

> was still alive and kicking. I haven't been keeping up with all

the

> messages here... in fact, I deleted about 500 messages yesterday

and

> read just the last 2 days worth. I had sort of shut myself in a

cave

> for a short time. I was " sulking " and just in general not doing

well

> with my weight loss. I am still doing some self-evaluating, but

> overall feeling better. During this hybrination phase, I gained

about

> 8 or 9 pounds. Yesterday, I stuck my nose to the grindstone and

> started the 1200 calorie meal plan for the first time since

starting

> my journey. I didn't do too bad. I went over by about 70-80

> calories. Today, I shoud do about the same... we'll see.

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> > I'm still having some of those bad thoughts of seeing others

bypass

> me and getting myself all worked up about it. It's not as easy as

I

> thought it might be to get over those feelings. But... I know

> how important it is to ME to get this weight off and have the

surgery

> and I won't let even me stand in the way of it. It'll just take

me a

> little longer than most to do it. I have to learn to accept that.

> Like most things worth while, it's just not an easy task. Having

my

> sister here to talk to about all this and helps me along is a

> wonderful asset.

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> > Wednesday is my birthday and to celebrate, I'm taking a day trip

to

> Bodega Bay. I'm going to walk along the beach for a while.

Walking

> in the sand has always been one of those things I dread, but I'm

going

> to really enjoy it this time. It'll be a good workout. I'm also

> working on weaning myself away from using my cane as much. The

only

> times I really feel I need it anymore is after I've been up and

around

> a long time. Once I've been on my feet for long periods, I have a

> harder time walking around and the cane just adds a " comfort zone "

and

> some support.

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> > Anyway, I'm here and will try to participate again. I hated

being

> away, but I was in a " dark place " and no one wants to see that...

> trust me.

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> > Ron

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