Advice and or Butt Kicking needed!

[Guest guest]

Hey folks,

I need some opinions here. I am in my fifth week of recovery from

total knee replacement and have got a terrible case of the blues. I

am beginning to realize that I am not real good at handling pain.

The longer it goes on, the more depressed I get. Although I am

recovering, and improving, the going is so slow, and sometimes the

pain is such a pain in the arse that I find myself lapsing into some

serious depression and blues.

The whole tragedy in New York seems to have exacerbated my bouts of

crying although I have not been personally impacted, and then my

kidlet ending up with emergency knee surgery, kinda pushed me over

the edge.

As I read some of your stories, and see that those of you who come

home from the hospital doing real well, and then seem to hit a wall

of problems and pain around your fifth week, well that scares the

hell out of me.

I have been scheduled for surgery October 30th. I really can't put

off the surgery for a number of logistical reasons, one that I have

been off work on benefits for 5 weeks and it really is not feasible

to go back to work and go off work again within the next year!

So....could someone kick me in the arse or knock some kind of sense

into me. I am having anxiety attacks...something I haven't dealt

with in years and years....and its all around being scared of being

scared! Laughing...does that make any sense at all?

Y'all have been a great source of inspiration and information for me,

and I'm hoping you can help get me over this hurdle!

Hugs etc,

Theresa