Re: Checking in...

[Guest guest]

Ron - you have always been such a sweetie to all of us, I'm so glad

you're back. We all have set backs but remember that is all it is " a

set back " not a " STOP " . Next one you get in a funk give someone a

call we are all here for you.

PEGGY

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> > Hello everyone. I just wanted to check in and let you all know I

> was still alive and kicking. I haven't been keeping up with all

the

> messages here... in fact, I deleted about 500 messages yesterday

and

> read just the last 2 days worth. I had sort of shut myself in a

> cave for a short time. I was " sulking " and just in general not

> doing well with my weight loss. I am still doing some self-

> evaluating, but overall feeling better. During this hybrination

> phase, I gained about 8 or 9 pounds. Yesterday, I stuck my nose to

> the grindstone and started the 1200 calorie meal plan for the first

> time since starting my journey. I didn't do too bad. I went over

> by about 70-80 calories. Today, I shoud do about the same... we'll

> see.

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> > I'm still having some of those bad thoughts of seeing others

> bypass me and getting myself all worked up about it. It's not as

> easy as I thought it might be to get over those feelings.

> But... I know how important it is to ME to get this weight off and

> have the surgery and I won't let even me stand in the way of it.

> It'll just take me a little longer than most to do it. I have to

> learn to accept that. Like most things worth while, it's just not

> an easy task. Having my sister here to talk to about all this and

> helps me along is a wonderful asset.

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> > Wednesday is my birthday and to celebrate, I'm taking a day trip

> to Bodega Bay. I'm going to walk along the beach for a while.

> Walking in the sand has always been one of those things I dread,

but

> I'm going to really enjoy it this time. It'll be a good workout.

> I'm also working on weaning myself away from using my cane as

much.

> The only times I really feel I need it anymore is after I've been

up

> and around a long time. Once I've been on my feet for long

periods,

> I have a harder time walking around and the cane just adds

> a " comfort zone " and some support.

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> > Anyway, I'm here and will try to participate again. I hated

being

> away, but I was in a " dark place " and no one wants to see that...

> trust me.

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> > Ron

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