I cancelled again= need advice

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Well I let my second chance go by again. Dr. was so

good to give me that chance. I was at peace, but it

left at one in the morning before surgery. What I

have learned is this. I completely believe that there

is a safer way to deal with a revision, that my risk

at this wt and age, and the stapling together of the

pieces of my stomach, plus all the other suture lines,

is too high of a risk. My age, prior surgeries, my

wt, all equals and unwise decision. I believe that

God wants me to do what HE wants, not what I want, and

I wanted this surgery more than anything. What I

believe HE wants is my safety, that I will have that

complete Peace about it. A virgin belly is different

to do, and the risks are lower. A revision is a

different animal. I am challenging Dr. K, because I

consider him " my bariatric surgeon " , to come up with a

less risky procedure for people like me. If anyone

knows of one, let me know. If my variables were

different, I was younger, weighted less(i'm 280),

hadn't had a prior vbg and chole, I believe I would

go through with the faith that I did the vbg at 37 yrs

old. But now, I'm through the change of life,

although I take hormones, I don't have that working

for me. more risks, and he has spelled them out time

and time again. But there has to be help for me

somewhere and not a rny either. I'm cross posting

this to the duodenal group as well as DRK>. I believe

he is an excellent surgeon, and is no reflection on

him. I wonder if any other Dr.s have faced this? any

ideas appreciated. thanks maril

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