White knuckling

[Guest guest]

This is horrible. I don't know why or wherefore, but the fire is in

me. For so long I was happy with what I was doing and feeling

strong.

I aam starting to doubt myself. I started at 370, am now at 230,a

success by surgical standards. I see so many people on this site

who look so great. I can't live up to them. I console myself by

saying only the successful people post.

So I am feeling like a new person, lots of weight lost. Thinking I

can do anything. I am 45 yrs old and with my weight loss I am trying

to make up for everything I didn't do.

And it hurts.

I went down a semi cliff with my 2 Bassets when they jumped the rock,

pulled me down, and I had several stiches in my head. I went skiing

for the 1st time and totally wrenched my shoulder.

Following that, I decided I was pissed off at my hasbeen for not

picking the fruit, so I put a ladder up against the fence, reached

too high, and toppled into the neighbors yard, a good 10 ft. drop.

Went to the Dr., said nothing except twirl you arm. At the gym

today I picked the brain of a personal trainer and he immediately

said something was wrong. He suggested I go to a chiropractor Dr.

(one who tooks x-rays). I went and found out I have a factured

shoulder compounded by a separation.

You know what? This stuff never happened when I was fat and sitting

in the chair all day. I hurt like hell, but I kind of see it like a

badge of honor.

AwwwOuwweee!

Smiles,

Vicki A,