New to group, GAINING and scared

August 13, 2003

Hello everyone, I was given this link by a fellow post op and I am

hoping to get some help. I am almost 2 years out and lost 180 lbs at

a time to get down to 138, that was Christmas Morning, 2002. Today,

8/13/03 I am 157.5 and so scared. I have gained 20 lbs. I still

exercise regularly, get in my protein, drink lots of water but I

guess I am eating too much or something. I can't tolerate carbs so I

basically eat protein which consists of lunch meats and cheeses (low

fat and fat free), eggs, nuts, I eat lots of yogurt and fruit too.

The problem is I am always hungry, I hate that empty stomach feeling

and it takes a lot more to make me full. I can eat a 9 ounce steak,

where is that going? I am so scared I am going to be 318 lbs again

that the stress is making me think I am hungry too. I know I eat too

much but have a very hard time controlling it. It scares me too that

I was the ideal patient, I did everything right and coached everyone

through this (and continue to do so) but now I am the one who needs a

kick. Please help! Anyone....also I have to note that I went for 12

months with no period and finally got one in May and then didn't get

another until last Friday, and I started wearing the birth control

patch as of Sunday to help regulate my cycle-since Sunday I have

gained 5 of the 20 I have gained so I know some is fluid but there is

no way I can blame this on the patch. I am scared, real scared. My

clothes still fit but are snug. I pulled out my 32W Jeans to try to

psych myself back into this but I am at my wits end....anyone ever go

through this? What did you do to get refocused? Please share with

me....I have no one I can go to with this, no one understands the

fear of going back....

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