Re: Yep...they're watching!

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In a message dated 6/26/2003 4:01:37 PM Central Daylight Time,

wildnixon@... writes:

> someone had approached her and asked her " if Deanna is

> doing okay...she looks like she's gained weight " . Well, truth be told,

> I HAVE gained a few pounds since my one-second low last year of 190,

> but I am still wearing the same clothes (slightly snugger than last

> year). Yeah, I know I haven't been the most vigilant about my diet and

> I've DEFINITELY become a slacker in the exercise dept., but MAN!!! I am

> now being more scrutinized than anyone else normally would be.

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Well, heck, I don't need anyone to do that FOR me; I do it to myself--am

constantly scrutinizing and beating me up and tsk-tsking at me for each and

every

lapse. And I am TERRIFIED at the old behaviors creeping back in. Each day I

let go of what I did with new resolve that today's over, and tomorrow I WILL do

it good, right, different, whatever. Know what? Tomorrow comes and I screw it

all up again. I really hate myself right now. Today 6 lbs up; next

month.................12, 20 45?

Carol A

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In a message dated 6/27/2003 12:44:35 AM Eastern Standard Time,

tuesdynite@... writes:

> Tomorrow comes and I screw it

> all up again. I really hate myself right now. Today 6 lbs up; next

> month.................12, 20 45?

>

Isn't this how we gained weight in the first place, self loathing? I can

tell you what to do to stop, but I don't know how to get those messages, that

tell us how hungry we are, out of our heads.

Fay Bayuk

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I know just how you feel; the self hatred; thats part of what got me in

trouble in the first place. Its a vicious cycle isn't it? I got up

this morning, still burning from yesterday's comments, and put on my

summer dress from last year. It was tight then, and its still tight

now, but it looks good AND IT FITS!! So, whoever this busybody from

work was, she is only going to bother me all the way back to the gym,

at least for today! New resolve...comes and goes...but I thank that

idiot for giving me a tiny smidgen today! I'm gonna use this, D@#%^*T!

You, on the other hand, love yourself because you are great, and have a

fabulous weekend!!! And many many thanks for the flaxseed info!! That

was truly useful information!

Deanna

Re: Yep...they're watching!

> In a message dated 6/26/2003 4:01:37 PM Central Daylight Time,

> wildnixon@... writes:

>

> > someone had approached her and asked her " if Deanna is

> > doing okay...she looks like she's gained weight " . Well, truth

> be told,

> > I HAVE gained a few pounds since my one-second low last year of

> 190,

> > but I am still wearing the same clothes (slightly snugger than

> last

> > year). Yeah, I know I haven't been the most vigilant about my

> diet and

> > I've DEFINITELY become a slacker in the exercise dept., but

> MAN!!! I am

> > now being more scrutinized than anyone else normally would be.

> ---------------------------------------------

>

> Well, heck, I don't need anyone to do that FOR me; I do it to

> myself--am

> constantly scrutinizing and beating me up and tsk-tsking at me for

> each and every

> lapse. And I am TERRIFIED at the old behaviors creeping back in.

> Each day I

> let go of what I did with new resolve that today's over, and

> tomorrow I WILL do

> it good, right, different, whatever. Know what? Tomorrow comes and

> I screw it

> all up again. I really hate myself right now. Today 6 lbs up; next

> month.................12, 20 45?

>

> Carol A

>