Re: just keeping in touch and depressed but losing weight

[Guest guest]

Janet,

I understand how you feel, I went through a similar situation after

my surgery in 1999. First, I suffered an infection which had to

heat from the inside-out. That meant 3 months of visits from

nurses, twice a day. Second, I came down with a small bowel

obstruction 2 months after surgery, spending 3 more days in the

hospital. After which my surgeon had me step back one level of food

(soft foods and diary products) and I decided to consume only milk

and yogurt. That put me in the hospital, again, with double vision

and a gait my walk. At this point I was diagnosed with Ataxia (loss

of coordination) and I still walk with a cane and may need a walker

soon (I am 42). What still bothers me is the fact that I did this

to myself. To make matters worse, in the past 3 years, I have put

back on 80 pounds and exercise is not an option because one of the

reasons for my surgery was osteoarthritis in both knees.

You are not alone. Janet, if you someone to Just listen I am here,

I will listen.

Patty

> hello i had surgery on feb 10,2003 with many complications most

of u

> have read my story. but i am doing well as to be expected now.

> mentally it is hard for me to face the fact that it is hard for me

to

> get dressed and do the normal things like shop and bath myself go

to

> the bathroom clean the house and i get depressed alot knowing the

> susituation well not improve all the constant wound care and

> bandages and dressing changes. i am learning how to walk with a

> walker adn i ned a wheelchair i cannot stand for morethan 5

minutes

> so this means i cannot return to my job as a hairdresser. i have

> physical therapy 3 times a week.. i have to have protein in my

> feeding tube 10 times a day....i miss not being able to eat or

drink

> anything its been over a year and the problem will not

change...but

> the good news is i have been eating and spitting it out justfor

the

> flavor and taste can anyone blame me..that has helped me mentaly

alot

> and food never tasted so good their are many other things wrong

> toobut it goes with my territory not everyone elses.....

> the good news is i have lost a lot of weight i am still big i

feel

> the fat has just shifted lol he he i haveto laugh...

> my starting weight was 427 i am now 247 so i am down quite a bit

i

> lose about 30 pounds every 2 months i cant wait to get in the 100

> numbers 199 would be great.he he havent seen any of these numbers

in

> a while..all the skin has dropped around my butt dropped down so i

> have no butt..face neck and arms look great but stomach is

terrible

> all the bandages and feeding tube and colostomy bag are just their

> plus skin graft on stomach because they could not close me up. so

no

> stomach muscles it just hangs..i am getting out to the car now ot

go

> for short rides which is good but i cant keep transfering to car

to

> wheelchair it wears me out to go shopping...well thanksfor letting

me

> vent i am getting a little stronger it just takes time and i have

to

> set my mindset that this is what i have to live with so i just

thank

> the lord i am alive and god bless everyone he is the main source

of

> me living plus my family who are great no words can describe them..

> thank you janet

> 427/247/150would like to be