Re: Going nuts....

[Guest guest]

, Do you want to change your life? You might as well go all

the way. Change jobs, to one that has insurance. Stick it out another

year, then go in for the surgery. You will not crave food, much less

carbs for a good period of time - long enough to get over the

cravings. Then, if you do cheat, you will not like the outcome and

decide it isn't worth it! That is the best advice I can give; but it

is never hopeless. Janet

> Hello I am

> I am 29 and I am 5'2 and weight 268/270 as most of you I battle

> with

> being over weight everyday of my life. I am so

> frustrated with my self. Until

> last

> weekend when I just had one bite of yummy carbs I believe it was…

> I

> can't even remember but now… I am crazy eating everything I

> can. I

> am really cracked it is like the carb monster hit me and I have to

> have a hit of carbohydrates. . I

> want a ruin Y gastro by-pass surgery

> I also have no insurance because of my job. I guess I am wishing

for a miracle

> I just needed to vent hoping

> for relief of my mentally thoughts of hopelessness.

[Guest guest]

Thank you for your words.

I am currently looking for a job that offers insurance at a better

weekly rate. I live in a small town and it is hard to find such jobs

but I will keep my hopes up. I guess the word hopelessness was a

very harsh word to use. I really should have used a better word

like, disappointed. But I am actually doing a little bit better

today. I am trying not to be too hard on myself but it is so hard.

With this surgery does it really help with the cravings? I am so

afraid I will want to eat the bad stuff. But I actually know it

would totally hurt me physically and make me sick so I might not…

lol a bit of a out loud argument with myself here…lol have a good

day.