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Hi , I too am new to this list. And welcome to the group. I joined a

while back and I just love it here. I too am going to have the surgery. I am 5

foot and 6 1/2 in tall. And I weight about 300 pounds. I have gotten up to 325

and yes it is embarrassing when I can't fit behind my seat on my bus (I am a

bus driver). I also have diabetes, I don't have high blood pressure now but, at

one time I did. And I have sleep apnea where I too wake up and can't breath.

I have had 4 back surgeries and now my back is still killing me with pain. I

can't walk very far or sit very long without having lots of pain. I have

irregular heart beat too. I have just now gone to my Dr. and he is going to get

appointment with a surgeon from Seguin, Texas and I will know more about that on

Monday. And I will let you and the rest of the group know when it will be.

Oh, yes my hubby is against me having this surgery as he thinks that I will

die on the table. But, then I could dye of a heart attack too of being too big.

But, I told him I am doing this for me not for him.

So, keep me updated when you will have surgery.

Take care,

PS I hope that I can have my surgery this summer so I can get better when

time comes to go back to school this fall that way I wont lose any time.

> Message: 4

> Date: Sun, 4 Apr 2004 12:44:58 -0700 (PDT)

>

> Subject: Introduction

>

> I want to say hello to everyone and introduce myself to all of you. I have

> not had the surgery yet, but I am seriously considering it. I am a 34 year

> old SAHM. I have 5 children: 10, Cortney 10, Dalton 6, Sierra 5, and

> Austin 2. I live in Kansas. I am 5 ft 5 in tall and weigh 320 pounds. I

> have not developed diabetes, high blood pressure or a heart condition as of

> yet. I am still in relatively good health. But I do have a lot of bak

problems

> to where I cannot stand very long at a time, and one of my legs is starting

> to swell all the time. They had it checked for blood clots but it is fine.

> I guess I'm debating this surgery before things get any worse. Right now I

> become out of breath walking up the stairs, chasing after the kids, just

> crossing the street. I used to be very active. I know I am starting to

develop

> sleep apnea because I catch myself waking up suddenlty gasping for air. I

> guess my biggest fear is dying and leaving my children. I'm hoping that if I

> would get this surgery now before I developed the other conditions it would

> decrease my risk of death and other complications. Does anyone know? I went

> to my son;'s school and I was supposed to be the special reader for the day

> and read a book to the kindergarten class. I was walking down the hall and

> some high school kid yells that thing must weigh 550 pounds. I was so

> embarressed and not only for myself but for my son. I don't ever want to be

an

> embarressment to my children. I hate myself anymore. Somedays it takes

> everything I have just to want to get out of bed. I won't look into any

mirrors, I

> have very few pictures of me with the children. I hate cameras. I would love

> to beable to play softball, volleyball, and basketball with my kids again.

> I am just so scared of this surgery killing me. I am sorry for rambeling on.

> I would just love to hear any information about this surgery anything

> anyone wants to share with me. Their highpoints, lowpoints, complications,

> would they do it again, how much they lost and how long it took. Thank you

> for letting me join this list and I look forward to getting to know you all

> as the time goes by. Any feedback would be highly appreciated.

>

>

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welcome new member. May you find the support you're looking for. God

bless.