Need a pick me up

[Guest guest]

Good morning everyone,

As much as I spout off about not being obsessed with weight numbers

and just living well, I have to admit it sure would be nice if I

dropped a pound or two. I'm working pretty hard and I have to say,

it's hard to beat a little weight loss as a motivator and natural

high. It makes me feel sassy!

However, I do know I'm building muscle. I can feel it. I am so much

stronger than before, and that is a high in itself. Still, I'm stuck

at 235 now for all of this year. Maybe I always would be. Sure

would be nice to break 200.

The first impulse is to get really drastic, cut calories and double

the workout. But I won't go there. I know from the past that this

kind of compulsive behavior only backfires in the end. I'll stick

with what I know is right and healthy.

I went bike riding yesterday for the first time in 10 years. We went

down to the beach and biked the path along the ocean. It was so much

fun!! I had forgotten how free and lightweight it feels to speed

along with the wind blowing through my hair. And all of the time

looking at the beautiful Monterey Bay and the Santa Cruz Beach

Boarwalk with its old wooden roller coaster and victorian bath house.

Definitely one of those gratitude moments that make me realize how

lucky I am to have been able to break out of the prison I was in.

There's a lot I could stress out about if I let myself. Hubby lost

his job, there are no jobs in s Valley, much less Silicon

Valley, we're losing our health insurance (no panni for me..at least

for now), the house is falling apart and now we can't spend money,

I'm worried about my auto insurance being cancelled because of my

DUI, blah blah blah...the list could go on and on.

But who gives a rat's ass?

I am healthy, as is my family. Monday the kids start Jr. Guards and

we'll spend all summer at the beach. The vege garden is growing, the

fruit trees are bearing and if nothing else we can eat zuchinni,

tomatoes, eggplant, okra, plums and apples.

Life is too much fun to sweat the small stuff. It all works out in

the end anyway, so why waste time worrying about things I have no

control over anyway?

And when I adopt this attitude, it takes away the compulsion to snack

and allows me to maintain a positive lifestyle re eating, exercising

and attitude.

So that's where I am today. I need to post these things not only to

share, but to give myself a pep talk. It seems to " solidify " when I

write it down.

Have a happy day comrades.

Smiles,

Vicki A.