Guest guest Posted May 2, 2003 Report Share Posted May 2, 2003 hello everyone, this thread brought even ME out of lurkdom. i had my surgery in jan of '99 5'3 " weighing 206.5 lost steadily 100 pounds, and heard for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE from " daddy dearest " " Jodi, i never thought i would hear myself saying this, but you are TOO THIN, you look OLD " .... i was in my early 40's at the time. anyway... started the assent.. and when i reached 124, looked and felt great. maintained that about a year or so... and then next thing i knew, i was 134 still didn't look BAD but started getting scared. SO scared, i ate my way to 144 and said whoa.... started doing Atkins. Did it for several months, perhaps i overate.... " all allowed stuff " ... didn't gain, didn't lose...however, best blood results i ever had since surgery... lowest cholesterol levels ever... was really surprised. BUT.... since i didn't lose ... i stopped atkins and ate my way to 149. Life is SO complex. Since 2000 i am living with a wonderful YOUNGER man, we are very much in love. he happens to like older women, and heavy women. well what i would call heavy.... so this SHOULD be a good thing... but it relaxes me too much. however, i am an adult... so i must take responsibility for my wt. and not blame the fact that marcelo enjoys meat on the bones. 3 days ago at 149 i began weight watchers. i'm not so sure how smart that is for me, since i KNOW i have a HUGE addiction to carbs... but i'm going to give it a week... and if i do not see decent results i will return to Atkins but eat smaller amounts perhaps. I find that alot of this is up in our heads. there are days when i can eat the entire contents of the refrigerator, and other days like the past three... with determination, that i have litte if any hunger.. as long as i have breakfast, lunch and dinner. and my water. by the way.. pre surgery i could eat the entire contents of the refrigerator in one sitting... now it just takes me a full day and night to do it. am i proud? NO but i KNOW i will get back down to the 124 wt again, and i just hope that i can maintain my perseverence. thank you all for allowing me to vent as i slip back into lurkdom smiles from jodi in miami a beautiful woman is the hell of the soul the purgatory of the purse and the paradise of the eyes [unable to display image] [unable to display image] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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