Guest guest Posted May 2, 2003 Report Share Posted May 2, 2003 Brothers, Sisters, Family, and Friends: You are getting this letter because you are family, a friend, a prayer partner, or a member my support network. Over the last couple of weeks, I have experienced sudden weakness throughout my whole body, especially while pitching at softball practice. This total body weakness was brought on suddenly and to a point where I could not throw another pitch. Actually, I was wondering if I could even get to my car. This was after pitching for about 45 minutes straight, but it was kind of scary. After consulting with , the wonderful nutritionist at BID, and Jim, a muscle physiologist whom I have been blessed to meet, and with others who have gone before me on the weight-loss journey, they all agreed that I need to increase my caloric intake. In looking at the intense workouts that I do at the gym, the more active life that I live throughout the day, and then going and pitching softball, I was simply running out of fuel. In taking in only 1200-1300 calories a day, I was only taking in what I was burning in the morning workouts! In other words, I am running the engine on fumes! By taking in so little fuel, I am actually hampering my weight loss, as my body thinks that we are starving. Due to all of this, my calories have been upped again to a goal of 1800 calories per day. This brings up two problems. One is that I am scared to death to take in that much, as I am very afraid of stretching out my stomach and becoming morbidly obese again. This fear is not reasonable, but it is still there. I can only describe the feeling of putting that much fuel into my body as being similar to taking a pair of tweezers and removing a splinter from my own eyeball. Although I know that I have to do it, my body and mind are screaming " DON'T DO IT!!!! " I know that fear is not of God, so I am asking for prayer in this area. Being that I am not usually a fearful person, and being scared of eating seems rather silly to me, this is an unusual situation. The second problem is that I simply do not have room in my schedule or in my belly for all of this eating. I am going to be upping the amount of protein bars and shakes in my day to make up for what I do not have room for. As I lose the next 30 pounds that I am supposed to lose, I will be slowly upping my calories to 2700 per day. This is all very scary for me, as I have never in my life had to be told to eat more! Over the next 6 months, I will be losing the last 30 pounds that I am to lose. This all being said, if you see me eating or not eating, please don't get overly analytical. My wife knows all too well that I eat with great purpose these days, counting everything that I put into my mouth. If you see me eating, it is because I have to, as I am trying to get a certain amount of fuel into my body. If you see me " not eating " when you think that I should be, it means that I am having a physiological issue, such as a stomach that is constricting, and I do not want to hurl in front of you. Most of the time, I have to eat by myself so that I can concentrate on what I am doing, as if I eat too fast, I get sick, and if there is a lot of activity going on at the meal, it makes my stomach get tight, which could lead to my getting sick. If you see me eating at an event or gathering, you may see me take some food, eat it, then take some more. This is done on purpose so as to pace myself so that I do not get sick. I am very aware with how much food and what kind of food I am taking in. The bottom line is that I know that people care very much about me, and I appreciate that. The kindness and support that I have been shown over the last year speaks volumes about how much people love and care about me. As much as I appreciate everybody caring about me, I need your understanding as well, as I am taking very good care of myself, following doctors orders, and being kept accountable by my wife, who has been to almost every meeting and appointment with me and can recite what the doctor or nutritionist said verbatim. She has been an awesome help in all of this. My promise to all of you is that I will continue to take very good care of myself, so please don't worry about me. In sharing this with you, I am letting you know that I understand your concerns and covet your prayers, but I am doing fine. God bless, Joe <>< Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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