Looking for encouragement

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Hey guys,

I don't post that often, but today I just need some encouraging

words from those who've BEEN through what I have. My family is

completely supportive but unless you've been through it, it's just

not the same.

I have done awesome with this surgery up until about 3 months or

so ago. I will be one year out on June 6th and I have lost 190lbs. so

far. The last 50lbs has been a bloody battle to drop. I would LOVE to

hit the 200lbs. mark by my anniversary. I have 10 more pounds to lose

and 33 days in which to do it in.

But here is my problem. Sometimes I think I psychologically freak

myself out! I can do great with eating, avoiding bad carbs and sugars

for days on end....but as soon as I step on the scale and see a

significant weight loss...the following 3 or 4 days are just HELL!!!!

I crave carbs, and I eat until I hurt! And it takes days to get

myself back on the stright and narrow. I know the solution would be

easy to just say... " well, stay off the scale dummy! " and I know you

would be right, but I need to get to the bottom of my fears if I am

going to get over them. The last thing I want is for this yo yo thing

to become a habit years out and eventually gain the weight back.

I've worked to hard and to long to let that happen, but I am

terrified that despite my pure intentions...it will inevitably

happen.

Has anyone else experienced this? What did you do about it? Know any

tricks I can use to fool myself? I'm desperate.

Thanks for listening to me rant.

RaeShel

June 6th, 2003

373/183/155 (hopefully after my tummy tuck in Dec.)