Guest guest Posted September 18, 2001 Report Share Posted September 18, 2001 I went through a horrible emotional roller coaster pre-op. I kept having ups and downs when I would think I would have surgery and then get another insurance denial in the mail. At one point I just decided to be happy the way I was, but something inside me told me to push on. I always felt like people were staring at me saying " look at the fat lady. " Maybe they were and maybe they weren't, but I always felt like they should be doing that. I hated going out in public and I especially hated going somewhere that I had to dress up. Once I knew I was having surgery, I felt a total sense of relief. Everyone was amazed at how calm I was about the whole thing. Even the night before surgery I was surprisingly calm. People kept telling me how hard a decision I must have made and they could have never done that. I told them if they spent any part of life as an obese person they would know. I felt that surgery was no different from if I needed bypass surgery or cancer surgery. I needed this surgery to save my life and I have never thought of it as a choice, but a need. I was nervous the day of surgery, but before that point I just felt so good. I knew my life was going to be saved and I would be able to be the mother to my kids that I wanted to be. At 9 weeks post-op, I catch my reflection and I can't believe it is me. I went to the mall today with some friends and I didn't feel out of place. I saw a reflection of us walking and I didn't stick out anymore. I still have a ways to go, but this is the best I have felt about myself in years. Kathy M. DS 7/19/01 Dr. Hares 213 pre-op 168 today Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2001 Report Share Posted September 18, 2001 In a message dated 09/18/2001 2:41:38 PM Central Daylight Time, pbl4Him@... writes: > But then something happened. I scheduled my consult appointment, and I feel > as though a dark cloud has lifted. I go shopping, have difficulty walking, > but I know now this is just temporary! I envision myself as a normal > person. > People look right through me, but I know that this too will change before > too long! It is amazing how much my attitude has changed already! I > haven't > even met the Dr. yet. If my insurance won't pay, I will find another way > to > have this surgery done! My attitude about myself has improved just knowing > that there is something that will help me to live the rest of my life as a > healthy, normal individual. Pam, Just wait until you are about 6 months out from surgery!!! It is amazing how liberating it is to not have the " weight burden " on your back!!! No more thinking about how tomorrow the diet is going to work. I should eat this. I shouldn't eat that. The high of losing and also having that almost uppity feeling when you have lost only to be devastated when you gain, etc., etc., etc. All of that is gone. I may not have become a skinny, minny but I will take my 165 and size 10 and just live and be very, very, very grateful for it. In fact if down the road I would gain 20 pounds (which with the DS isn't real likely to happen but not impossible) I still think the fact that I will not be " really fat " as Dr. Hess says again will be enough to keep me grateful! Dawn--South Suburban Chicago area Dr. Hess, Bowling Green, OH BPD/DS 4/27/00 www.duodenalswitch.com 267 to 165 5' 4 " size 22 to size 10 have made size goal no more high blood pressure, sore feet, or dieting! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2001 Report Share Posted September 18, 2001 > But then something happened. I scheduled my consult appointment, and I feel > as though a dark cloud has lifted. . . It is amazing how much my attitude has changed already! I haven't > even met the Dr. yet. I haven't met my doctor yet either but I wanted to let you know I've been feeling the same way. I've always been over weight but stopped even giving it any thought. I finally feel like there's hope. And yes I find myself saying, next year I'll be able to this or that. Just wanted to let you know you're not alone. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2001 Report Share Posted September 18, 2001 Kathy, How long did you have to fight the insurance company.My surgeon is the only one in N.and S.Carolina and out of network? Thanks, in South Carolina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 18, 2001 Report Share Posted September 18, 2001 Dear Kathy, What you went through I am going through now. Thought not through any insurance but self-pay it seems like this will never happen. Lately, I've been feeling very discouraged and depressed. I have been trying to make my WLS in Spain happen. Been trying to save $, work harder & pray with all my heart to God. And nothing. I guess I must be on the down of this roller coaster. Stories like yours put a smile on my face, your dream became a reality. I hope mine does too. :)a, Pre-op Re: Pre-op relief I went through a horrible emotional roller coaster pre-op. I kept having ups and downs when I would think I would have surgery and then get another insurance denial in the mail At 9 weeks post-op, I catch my reflection and I can't believe it is me. I went to the mall today with some friends and I didn't feel out of place. I saw a reflection of us walking and I didn't stick out anymore. I still have a ways to go, but this is the best I have felt about myself in years. Kathy M. DS 7/19/01 Dr. Hares 213 pre-op 168 today Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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