Struggling

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Howdy all,

I just have to put this out there. I am really white knuckling it

right now. The munchies have got me bad. I know the reasons...lots

of small stuff, all inconsequential by themselves, but they add up to

stress and boredom. I also know the answer, but I feel terribly

unmotivated right now.

It is so weird. A month ago I was gung ho and couldn't imagine

living any other way. But I guess the old bad habits can rear their

ugly heads when we least expect it. Another reminder that this is a

lifetime battle, not just a temporary fix.

Luckily I haven't gained any weight, but if I don't straighten up, it

is just a matter of time.

I will try to go back to the gym today despite my ripped out

shoulder. Even if I only do half an hour on the bike, it should

relieve stress and at least make me feel like I did something good

for myself.

I don't want to put the cart before the horse, but I wouldn't be

surprised if I'm in for a long haul with my husband being out of

work. It's nice having him around because now he has a very positive

attitude. But people here near Silicon Valley are out of work 1-2

years, even the quite experienced people. There's just no work. I

need to be especially attentive to staying on an even keel if it

should take hubby awhile to find something. I don't worry

financially, but it definitely takes an emotional toll on the job

seeker. Hopefully I won't be the target, if you know what I mean.

Well, that all may not happen and I will keep a positive attitude

both for myself, my hubby and my family. But forewarned is

forearmed. This three day slip is a good warning to me that I need

to be more in tune with what is happening inside me.

There's nothing that can happen which stuffing my face will make

better.

Onward ho!

Smiles,

Vicki A.