My friends

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Here's a good one: Tell me how you really feel but please be kind!!!!

Okay, I've just dropped almost 80 pounds since October 3, 2003. I am

feeling proud of myself. I'm driving my husband nuts cuz I can't

stop looking at myself in mirrors, windows, anything that will show

me! I felt so horrible about myself for so many years and to see

this thin little face, blows my mind! Anyway, my co-workers are all

so happy for me. They compliment me constantly. It's embarrassing,

but I handle it graciously. Now my " friends " are another thing. I

belong to an organization that I am very active in. I thought most

of these people were really happy for me. I haven't been bragging

all that much with them even tho they are my " friends " . Immediately

after the surgery, I was asking the thin ladies how much they weighed

to gage what I would look like. I would say " How much do you

weigh? " They would smile and tell me maybe like - 135 and I

said " I'm going to be right down there with you someday!! " Then they

would smile and tell me how great that was... . A bunch of pictures

were taken of me and this group and I made a couple of comments about

how I couldn't believe it was actually " me " in those pix! People

seemed happy for me, were patting me on the back, etc.

Well that was a few months ago and now I'm finding these people are

throwing these things back in my face when I'm not around. My dh

went to a meeting that I didnt go to and he told me people were

saying nasty stuff like " Well, you should have heard Lori asking

people how much they weighed.... " or " You should have heard her when

she saw a picture of herself... " I feel like they have turned on

me. I thought cuz they were my friends and were all thin I could say

this stuff to them. I won't say anything around them about my weight

anymore I guess. By the way it's all women who are saying this stuff.

Can you all understand what I'm going through here? My Gosh, I was

so heavy and looked so awful for soooo many years. I am 49 and think

that I am just now finally really starting to like myself. I had

almost 48 years of extremely low self esteem.

That's it, just needed to vent. Has anyone else experienced mean-

ness from people they thought were their friends after weight loss?

Thanks

LoriB

LAPRNY 10/3/04 228/151/130

ft laud fl

dr. english

P.S. Just found out I can tolerate sugar. This is not good. We all

have to remember: We have a TOOL! That's all the pouch is, a tool!