Guest guest Posted September 20, 2001 Report Share Posted September 20, 2001 Okay, I'm having a moment of panic here...I'm seeking calm but not finding it. One week from today at this very hour I will be lying flat on my back, arms spread, legs spread, Dr. E. and staff hoving over my body with all kinds of devices, lights, cameras, sticking out of me as my insides are turned longways and sideways. And why? because I don't have self-control enough to eat moderately and excercise until my legs want to fall off. NOT! Well, okay I'll be lying in a strange position, that part is true but this is not about self-control. It's about my health and my genes. I've inherited Grandma Nahodil's propensity to be a big " gal " and nothing I've tried has been able to work. This is the court of last resort, I've exhausted all of my options and only made the situation worse each time I've " failed " . Now I know this is not really true, but I go through this once in a while and have the above thoughts of " I don't have the self-control " . I am terrifed and I have moments (l like now) when I question myself if I am insane to put myself through this. Mostly though, and thankfully, I have been rather serene about this decision lately. I feel like I'm loosing it. Is this normal one week pre-op?? Nahodil Fairfax, VA BPD/DS - Lap 9/27/01 Pre-op Dr. Elariny BMI 46 +/- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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