New pesky habit- Binge eating

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Hi folks,

I'm almost 2 yrs post and even at my grand 'ol preop weight I didn't

consider myself a binge eater...just a very very big eater. I find

myself obsessed with food these days (more than ever preop) and

eating until the point of pain. I eat stupid stuff (like spoons

filled with peanut butter and raisens) until I'm nauseous. I feel out

of control, I'm eating behind everyone's back. Any others feel like

they've stumbled on this type of behavior only now as a postie? It's

been happening for the last two months or so, but now to the point

I'm starting to steadily gain. I'll be beyond my preweight this time

next year at this rate. Sorry so incoherent. I'm sitting up hours

after my normal bed time fretting over this (not to mention sitting

here with a bloated nausuas belly). It's only after these episodes

that I regain reason and guilt and think of all the things I should

have done to avoid a binge fest (like take a walk, do needle craft,

paint, write in my food journal, etc). I'm thinking the carb thing

has me in carbaholic mode so tomorrow I'm cutting waaaaayyyy back on

my normal routine of cereals/sandwiches/etc. See if that gets me back

to at least not constantly thinking about food. Any thoughts/advice

would be greatly appreciated. Do you think an eating disorder

therapist would do me good...or would they just try to link this to

some supposed strange event I'm suppressing from childhood or

something...Thanks for any input.

Kim open RNY 7/17/01 282/135ish/125ish