A Turning Point?

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Yesterday I had one of those days where everything just became so crystal

clear. In essence, I am tired of being a fat girl. And while I know a size 14

is definitely not obese, and looks pretty damn good, especially at 38, I do not

desire to be overweight at all. And it's not for one reason -- it's for a

hundred little reasons. Some silly. Some not so silly... like

1. To wear really high heels.

2. To wear sleeveless dresses.

3. To wear a bikini.

4. To not be perceived as the fat girl by great looking guys.

5. So that all the muscles I've worked so hard to define, show.

6. To be able to run easier, faster, farther.

7. To be more flexible.

8. To wear a crop top.

9. To lessen the risk of diabetes, heart disease, and other ailments

associated with being overweight.

Anyway, I found this four week guide to running a 5k in SELF magazine and

today I started it. It felt awesome! I am so shocked that I could do day one

.... and even more shocked to realize that means I am 4 weeks away from RUNNING

a 5k.

WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW Warning: I am on a bit of a runner's high

here!

Anyway, I signed up for a 5k in Baltimore on June 22. Yep, that's exactly 4

weeks away making my necessity of following the training regimen they outline

even more urgent. I am so psyched for this.

I know it's not going to be as easy as all that to turn this around. Quite

frankly, it is a whole mental outlook well beyond just not exercising, not

eating right, not taking care of myself in general, so while fixing the parts is

a

major achievement, I recognize that as with anything sticking to it is going

to be the challenge.

I guess this is why I am writing you. And why I wrote SELF about it. And

why I am going to tell my friends of my plan. I'm feeling somehow that will

help me to keep at it.

se

Baltimore, MD

Open RNY 11/22/99, Dr. Sweet, Reading, PA

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11/22/99 324, BMI 51

12/6/99 301, BMI 47

1/27/00 280, BMI 44

2/22/00 270, BMI 42

3/16/00 262, BMI 41

5/31/00 244, BMI 38 (no longer extremely obese... just plain obese)

7/22/00 224, BMI 35

9/23/00 220, BMI 34 (and still obese)

10/16/00 216, BMI 34

11/7/00 210, BMI 33 (65 pounds from goal!!!)

5/8/01 196, BMI 31 (new goal 157; I am 5'7 " that would give me a BMI

of 24.6; 39 pounds to go)

9/13/01 196, BMI 31 (Stuck!)

4/2/02 200, ARGH! Very frightening moment. Hopefully I can lose back

down to 190 quickly!

4/28/02 201 (started a starch-free, 4 hours a week of exercise

program...weighed in at the gym)

9/22/02 Tummy Tuck, Thigh Lift, and Lower Back Lift, Dr. Shermack, s

Hopkins, Bayview,

Baltimore, MD -- 12 pounds of skin removed!!

5/15/03 208!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ouch.