it is only beginning now

[Guest guest]

Hello everyone,

I was wondering how most of you live in the USA and you are either

only just getting up or about to have lunch while it is already

almost 6.00 PM here in Hungary.

I have been reading this group for half a year now and thanks to

your posts I feel I am much closer to accepting my situation.

(Sometimes even far too close and begin to think it would be better

to live in total ignorance of what's coming).

After all the initial visits and examinations they are finally

beginning with the braces tomorrow. More exactly the plastic rings

that make space for the real metal ones. I have real tight teeth and

can't imagine how I am gonna cope with teaching for a few days with

all the pressure.

How long do they really bother after they put them on? I know it is

not the most difficult part of my 2-year journey, but the one coming

is always the most difficult, I guess.

I have open bite and I am going to have upper and lower surgery in

about a year. Really something I never would have thought could

happen to me in the past. I had had a few dentists who told me that

I had an open bite but never ever even just hinted at that I will

need surgery. When I first heard it this summer I couldn't believe

it and said it was something I will never let them do to me. So I

have come a long ways. It is just terribly frightening.

What really troubles me is that I am 28, female, married to a

wonderfully supportive man, and we planned to have a baby as soon as

we returned from the USA back in June 2004. (We spent a year in

South Carolina on a Fulbright grant and I taught in a private school

in Columbia, SC)

The ortho says I should get the surgery done and then after healing

have a baby for various reasons. I can totally accept his point with

my mind but not with my heart. For the last few months it has been

difficult to be around babies and pregnant women, which is not rare

given my age group, friends, colleagues are expecting babies and it

is just so hard not to cry. Sometimes I could cry when they show

those commercials with cute babies.

It is acceptable just hard.

Anyway, I am just ranting now.

I hope all of you way ahead of me on this road are doing well.

Karola