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Hello everyone. I just wanted to check in and let you all know I was still alive and kicking. I haven't been keeping up with all the messages here... in fact, I deleted about 500 messages yesterday and read just the last 2 days worth. I had sort of shut myself in a cave for a short time. I was "sulking" and just in general not doing well with my weight loss. I am still doing some self-evaluating, but overall feeling better. During this hybrination phase, I gained about 8 or 9 pounds. Yesterday, I stuck my nose to the grindstone and started the 1200 calorie meal plan for the first time since starting my journey. I didn't do too bad. I went over by about 70-80 calories. Today, I shoud do about the same... we'll see.

I'm still having some of those bad thoughts of seeing others bypass me and getting myself all worked up about it. It's not as easy as I thought it might be to get over those feelings. But... I know how important it is to ME to get this weight off and have the surgery and I won't let even me stand in the way of it. It'll just take me a little longer than most to do it. I have to learn to accept that. Like most things worth while, it's just not an easy task. Having my sister here to talk to about all this and helps me along is a wonderful asset.

Wednesday is my birthday and to celebrate, I'm taking a day trip to Bodega Bay. I'm going to walk along the beach for a while. Walking in the sand has always been one of those things I dread, but I'm going to really enjoy it this time. It'll be a good workout. I'm also working on weaning myself away from using my cane as much. The only times I really feel I need it anymore is after I've been up and around a long time. Once I've been on my feet for long periods, I have a harder time walking around and the cane just adds a "comfort zone" and some support.

Anyway, I'm here and will try to participate again. I hated being away, but I was in a "dark place" and no one wants to see that... trust me.

Ron

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Glad you're back, been missen ya.BBQ Man wrote: Hello everyone. I just wanted to check in and let you all know I was still alive and kicking. I haven't been keeping up with all the messages here... in fact, I deleted about 500 messages yesterday and read just the last 2 days worth. I had sort of shut myself in a cave for a short time. I was "sulking" and just in general not doing well with my weight loss. I am still doing some self-evaluating, but overall feeling

better. During this hybrination phase, I gained about 8 or 9 pounds. Yesterday, I stuck my nose to the grindstone and started the 1200 calorie meal plan for the first time since starting my journey. I didn't do too bad. I went over by about 70-80 calories. Today, I shoud do about the same... we'll see. I'm still having some of those bad thoughts of seeing others bypass me and getting myself all worked up about it. It's not as easy as I thought it might be to get over those feelings. But... I know how important it is to ME to get this weight off and have the surgery and I won't let even me stand in the way of it. It'll just take me a little longer than most to do it. I have to learn to accept that. Like most things worth while, it's just

not an easy task. Having my sister here to talk to about all this and helps me along is a wonderful asset. Wednesday is my birthday and to celebrate, I'm taking a day trip to Bodega Bay. I'm going to walk along the beach for a while. Walking in the sand has always been one of those things I dread, but I'm going to really enjoy it this time. It'll be a good workout. I'm also working on weaning myself away from using my cane as much. The only times I really feel I need it anymore is after I've been up and around a long time. Once I've been on my feet for long periods, I have a harder time walking around and the cane just adds a "comfort zone" and some support.

Anyway, I'm here and will try to participate again. I hated being away, but I was in a "dark place" and no one wants to see that... trust me. Ron

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