Guest guest Posted June 18, 2003 Report Share Posted June 18, 2003 Good morning comrades, I just have to put this out there. I am so fried from stress right now. Not that my problems are particularily big, but I still haven't mastered the skills of coping well without food or alcohol. One side of my mind has it down, but the habits still want to rear their ugly heads. I'm having trouble sleeping and I find myself pacing like a tiger at night, fighting the absolutely all consuming compulsion to snack. I try to keep myself busy but it's like fighting an alien being in my head. It's just a matter of time and practice. The more I succeed at squelching these impulses, the easier it will become. I did give in to grazing last night to some extent, but I ate f/f cottage cheese and string cheese. Not a success, but not chips either. I know I'll be disappointed when I go to the gym today and see either no loss or (shudder) a gain. But I have to weigh myself to make myself accountable. That's one of the major ways for my brain to make the connection. Then when I am sweating like a pig during my workout I will ask myself, " Was it worth it? Wouldn't it be easier to white knuckle it for an hour at night rather than spend two hours working it off? " I always use the calorie counter on the treadmill and bike so I can see exactly how much effort it takes to work off what I so easily pop in my mouth. It will take me an hour of cycling to work off the 320 extra calories I popped last night. I'm not beating myself up though. In fact, I'm really enjoying this re-wiring of my brain. I fully expect it to take a few years, but it's a few years of progress filled with ever increasing rewards and enjoyment and appreciation of life. This morning at a support group meeting a couple of people commented on how good I am looking. Call me vain, but that's just the little extra added push I need. So it's off to walk the dogs with the kids for an hour and then to the gym. Afterwards I will treat myself by going to the nursery and buying some more vegetable plants for my garden. It's all good. Smiles, Vicki A. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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