Re: Re: Feeling down about slowdown in loss

[Guest guest]

Kathy,

You are rasing some very important points in your posts: Having surgery doesnt

always cure our food demons. Somehow the DS quiets alot of them but not all of

them. I think you are doing the right thing in seeing a therapist it speaks of

your strenght and you should be proud. I gotta tell ya though I would love to

weigh 154 I check out your stats and I think very nice!!!!! But like you said at

your height and my height the difference is remarkable. I am like you I carry

alot of my weight in front which means that even thought I have lost 56 lbs the

kids I work with poke me smile and say big belly LOL. Kids are great for a

reality check! Hang in there kid you are doing well and I know you will get to

goal. What is important is our health!

cheers,

Lisbeth

You are right, I was sniveling. But I should clarify that I fought for 18

months with my insurance to get surgery. From the time I started researching

until I had surgery was 3 years. The only way I got insurance coverage was

by changing insurance companies during open enrollment and working with my

regular doctor trying to lose weight for 6 months with Xenical. I know a lot

of people on this list would be very happy with where I started, but at

5'1.5 " , 213 is a lot. I also tended to carry it all in my middle and I had

lots of co-morbidities. I guess all I am saying is that I was in the same

spot a lot of people who are fighting insurance are in.

I think my biggest problem is that the weight loss can be addicting. Having

so many people tell me how good I look is hard to turn down. My close

friends are all very worried about me and my surgeon is watching me very

closely. I have been told by my surgeon that if the loss doesn't slow down

soon I would have to start taking an enzyme with my food to absorb more. I

could never understand people who would have a hard time eating enough food

until now. After having weight problems for years, it is so hard to make

myself eat more. In my case, surgery is working a little too good. As much

as this may make some people feel like they wished they had the same problem,

it isn't as good as it sounds. I obsess over everything I eat and have

nightmares if I eat anything without nutritional value. Last night I had 1/2

biscuit and was upset all night about it. Now that I have seen a slowdown in

weight loss, I feel even stronger that I need to control everything I eat.

My brain knows slower weight loss is better, but the rest of me just isn't

listening. I think at this point I may need to see a counselor to work this

out. It seems I have traded one food problem for another. In my case it was

correct to say my weight problem was due to an emotional issue.

I am sorry if I upset anyone. I know my problem isn't common and when you

are overweight it is very hard to sympathize with someone who is losing at a

fast pace. It is even harder to understand when the loss gets to a normal

point and I complain. If you are pre-op, please understand that this can

happen and you need to prepare yourself emotionally for it. I figured it

would be great to lose really fast and at first it was. Now the reality has

hit and I need to re-evaluate.

Kathy M.

DS 7/19/01

213 pre-op

154 today

[Guest guest]

<but mostly I just worry so much about the weight coming back. Does any of this

make sense?>

Kathy M.

DS 7/19/01

213 pre-op

154 today

Kathy,

Yes it does make sense, I am still putting myself through the " how can you eat

that syndrome "

and I notice that when I do I tend to eat meals that arent nutritously balanced

(I was going to say bad but I noticed that when I go down the road I just make

dumber choices) Now I acknowledge the choices and mentally acknowledge a better

choice...But Kathy it is hard not to live in diet mode even with the DS. So

please dont feel alone and you really are a strong person always remember that!

*hugs*

Lisbeth

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[Guest guest]

In a message dated 10/25/2001 4:27:15 PM Pacific Daylight Time,

andem4@... writes:

> I am not complaining about *only*

> losing 59 lbs. I am feeling depressed and I was wondering if any post-op

> could relate. I am thankful every day that I was able to have surgery. I

> am

> thankful that I found out about surgery before my weight got any worse. I

> still feel obese even if I don't look it.

Kathy..

I think we all can get addicted to the rush from the rapid loss and people

noticing us for once. If you are feeling depressed, I strongly urge you to

go see a counselor or therapist or even your PCP. I stopped my Wellbutrin

when I got back from surgery and really got depressed for a few days...so I'm

back on it and feeling great! I think there is so much going on your body

and brain can't keep up with it. Take some time and do something good for

yourself. Also throw away the scale or lock it up and only get it out once a

week or so. Stop slaving over it and start living. Life is good...and is

going to get better...don't let depression get in the way..this is your time

to shine and make up for some of the crap you've had to deal with the past

few years!

~*~ AJ ~*~

Age 37 5'8'' Post op 7/24/01 Open DS

self pay - Dr Baltasar -Alcoy Spain

07/24/01 BMI 64 415.1

08/24/01 BMI 58 386.5 -28.6 lbs!

09/24/01 BMI 55.8 367.1 -48.0 lbs! -37.75 inches

10/08/01 BMI 54.3 357.1 -58.0 lbs! -50.0

10/24/01 BMI 52.6 346.0 -69.1 lbs!

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