Re: is the true mom and a follow up note on depressi...

November 4, 2001

In a message dated 11/4/01 4:43:02 PM Pacific Standard Time,

micheller@... writes:

> I truly can say that I would rather put all of my 200 pounds of excess fat

> back on me then be as depressed as I was.

>

...I think many of us can relate to your feelings. I've been having

a hard day today and found myself in the garage thinking,...how easy to get

in the car, start it up and just be done. My day today started after a

wonderful beginning to the weekend with my boyfriend to my son being sick and

my parents accusing me (my mother who already is dealing with a very ill

mother, gout and other things) of not taking care of my son because while I

was sleeping he'd called and told them I wouldnt help me (he was asleep when

I laid down, and then hollered for me a couple hours later...but could get up

to get get the phone). Needless to say I was not with it when they woke me

and then my mother lost it and started saying alot of cruel things while my

dad tried to quiet her. It was not a fun time. Mix that with my own

depression and its not a pretty sight. THankfully I'm on my meds, have been

in counseling and I know that i was thinking of a permanent solution to a

temporary feeling / problem. It is difficult though when you feel the world

doesn t understand or care about you. I hope things are going better for you

today and thank you for starting this list. I am so thrilled with my surgery

and the results so far. I wish you the best and hope you have things under

control and are able to move forward with life!!

~*~ AJ ~*~

Bellingham, WA

Age 37 5'8'' Open DS

self pay - Dr Baltasar -Alcoy Spain

07/24/01 BMI 64 415.1

08/24/01 BMI 58 386.5 -28.6 lbs!

09/24/01 BMI 55.8 367.1 -48.0 lbs! -37.75 inches

10/24/01 BMI 52.6 346.0 -69.1 lbs! -50.0 inches

10/29/01 BMI 51.8 341.5 -73.6 lbs! -58.0 inches

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