So confused

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I've been looking at the posts on this site and I have to admit that some of the

things I have read scare me. I haven't gotten on before because in a way I felt

like this wasn't me and in all honesty I don't have a true diagnosis(I went to

the ER on the 23rd and they found Pulmonary Nodules, the ER Dr. said it was

Pulmonary Fibrosis). See now this is were the confusion comes in... the hospital

called me to set up my appointment with the Pulmonary Clinic, but they wouldn't

see me till I was seen by the Cancer Center. Had to get another CT scan (since

the one from the ER was for back and abdominal pain, they saw my lungs on

review, but the report was not for my lungs, so hence the 2nd CT scan...already

feel the tail chasing). The results per the Dr @ the Cancer Center are that I

have 4 nodules the largest being only 4mm's, to small to biopsy, nothing more to

do except re-do CT scan in 6 months to see if it grows (he said that they

usually re-do in a year but since I have had 3 other cancers; cervical, throat

and breast all w/i 19 years, I'm 49; they will scan me in 6 months). Now they

are setting me up with the Pulmonary Clinic.

There has been a lot going on already; this time last year I was on a Heart

Monitor because I had heart palputations, nothing found there. Breathing study,

okay for the most part... fatigue (sometimes I get so little sleep that it is

hard to get up to go to work), shortness of breath, light headed, muscle aches,

but the worst is the cough... it seems I cough ALL the time, it is very

annoying... I get asked all the time if I'm okay... do I need a cough drop,

water, you name it I've been asked.

Okay,this last week has been hell... thinking OMG another CANCER...NO!

But during my waiting for my Dr's appt I have been reading this sites notes and

researching this dis-ease and I don't know which is the lesser, not that either

is a good thing.

I don't know what is going to happen now. How does one really find out? What

test do they do? For some stupid reason I think I could of handled a cancer

diagnosis better than this dis-ease, maybe that's because I know what to expect

and now I have no clue... I am sorry that this is so long... but there is so

much going on in my head and they say to " let it out to get it out " . I'm scared

to talk to my family because I'm afraid they will see just how scared I am, they

aren't used to that. They have only seen me fight and I'm afraid this is bigger

than anything I have faced before.