Re: To Chrissy - Thank you

[Guest guest]

I can relate to what you're saying Chrissy I really can. Although I

can't say that I LOVE my job (financial analyst) it's been pretty

good to me as to benefits and I am sure I've told you that I'm the

major breadwinner in the house so it will mean financial disaster if

I were to lose my job.

I'm truly flabbergasted that your boss actually said that to

you...that's is just unbelievable!!! The part about people being

nasty and snide really hit a nerve with me too....I know JUST what

you mean. People are only too quick to get in there with the

negativity....if only they knew.

The idea you have about the legal nurse consultant course is a very

good one....but let yourself heal Chrissy first. Give yourself some

time. You sound like you are just a natural " go, go, go " person

which is how I am so I can relate. I think that's what really makes

this even worse is that you just simply are not capable of doing

things like you once were and yet people have become accustomed to

you as being that way and can't understand why you aren't anymore.

So, then you try to compensate and push yourself too hard....believe

me, I know the drill!!

I also know what you mean when you say you feel useless...I got

REALLY down about it yesterday being bed ridden and all. No, I

won't get in trouble at work for being on here!! I have my work

computer hooked up thru my phone line which sits right next to my

home computer on high speed internet. So, I just push my chair over

and I'm on my own computer and " they " can't see what I'm doing

unless they've got a hidden camera on me, LOL!! They've allowed me

to work from home since all of my work is done on computer databases

anyway so I can remotely access them. Although it's only till the

end of September. I must admit it has been kind of them - although

I s'pose it could be used against me someday, i.e., " she can't even

get her work done from home so let's try and get rid of her using

that fact " kind of thing. I missed an important deadline just

yesterday because I was basically too sick to get out of bed.

How long has this been for you from start of first symptoms to this

latest op you've had? I'm just curious as it seems to progress

faster in some people than in others.

Yes, I've just in the last month started to take antioxidants and

found one that contains grape seed extract in it. Someone (Heidi

maybe?) mentioned that grape seed extract is supposed for be good

for people with CP....don't remember the exact reason for that

though. I take a stress formula (high in the B vitamins) and then

this antioxidant one. Are there others I should take as well. It

has helped a bit...but hard to tell really as the symptoms have

gotten worse just of late.

My appointment at the Lahey Clinic in Boston, MA with the gastro doc

that also specializes in endoscopy is this Thursday at 10 am, and it

can't come soon enough. I know what you mean about suffering....but

my local ER is just clueless...I sit there waiting for 4 hours at

least while they treat all the drunks, druggies, etc. And, then

they take my blood and as the enzymes haven't risen since the very

first time I had an attack.....they are clueless as to what to do.

That's why I hesitate to go in there....I don't have any backup

info/documentation from a gastro doc to take with me to show them

yet either...so unless I'm really having such a time of it that I

can't stand it, I won't go in. And it's come close lately.

Anyway, I've written a book here but take care Chrissy....I know you

wanted so much to continue in your profession. I always wanted to

be a nurse but life took a different path for me....take care and

feel free to write anytime on or off line. I appreciate the

information and the new friends I've made here.

love and hugs