I love you all, truly

[Guest guest]

I dont know how to express the genuine kindness and concern that I

received from ya'll while I was in the hospital. When I think about

how much love I have gotten, it makes my eyes water. Not even my

blood kin have shown that much caring.

With each and every phone call my heart was lifted, not to mention

my backside out of the bed, even if it was just to sit up. With

every card and post card, I was inspired to get up and get well. I

dont want to disappoint one of ya'll by not getting better. My room

was filled with the flowers, balloons and cards ya'll, and other

loved ones, sent and each time a person entered they would comment

on my bounty and how it brighted the room. Many asked to read the

cards and notes and I was so proud to tell them YES. I even awoke

to see one of the docs glancing through. My room was so bright and

cheery and the frangrance of the blossoms would seep into the

halls.

One elderly woman was there visiting her husband and walked by my

room several times a day. When I started to walk about she and I

would chat, it was nice to have the company on the walks. She said

walking past my room was such a pleasure, like walking into a

florist. She said I must be well loved, I told her all love is

done " well " .

I think about how depressed and what a gloomey guss I was before the

procedure. That bad feeling I had. Well that was the PAIN for

sure. There are not enough drugs on earth to alleviate that and the

first few days are just a blurr. I was having these awful

esophageal spasms on top of the usual that they said was caused by

the NG tube. I thought I was having a heart attack. I still am

having those but are much less frequent. I am still in a lot of

pain and have tons of drugs. They put me on Dilaudid po and the

allergic reaction was so mild I am still taking it.

I have 2 very attractive jp type drains that hang down to my pelvis,

so you can use your imagination as to how I am referring to them

(the boys). Steri stips from stem to stern and an extra belly

button from where the peg was. Yup Peg and I have separated!

Heidi it was so nice to have met you, I wish we could have spoken

more but I had no idea that they would be ready for me so quickly.

My family enjoyed meeting you and Billy looked for you after I had

rolled but you had gone. You are even more beautiful then I had

pictured. I was discharged last evening. Cinco de Mayo, but no

margeritas and tacos for me. It was a lovely afternoon and Billy

and I walked the yard and all the piddling in my little gardens just

boomed and looks wonderful, thanks for the rain storm you has such

an awful time in.

My bed felt so good, but it was a bit frustrating. Every time I hit

the remote control there was nobody saying " Can I help you Mrs

Rowland? " and no matter how hard I hit the sides of my bed, the

head would not budge an inch.

Well as you all can imagine, I have tons and tons of email, and

pages and pages of mb to look over. I may not get to it all so if

anybody has anything they want to recap with me that would be

great. I know that all your thoughts and prayers have had so much

to do with my recovery so far. I am forever grateful. I do truly

love you all.

Chrissy