Jac

[Guest guest]

I am so sorry that you are having such a rough go of it now. I hope

the biopsies go well and everything comes back negative. When are

you having them? How will they go about doing it? With a scope?

Will some body be with you? How are you lymph nodes, have they

settled down some? I hope so Jac, I'll keep you in my thoughts and

prayers.

I dont know why I am so shook up about this surgery. I never

fretted over any of the others. Maybe I am just scared because I

know how horribly painful it will all be. I know this is the only

recourse I have right now if I want to ever get out of this house

again or even feel like myself again. I am really worried about it

though. It just makes my stomach turn every time I think about it

then I start to sob. Not just tears now, full fledge sobbing. Cant

say that I have done that in years. Well I hope I get over this

soon, Im really looking like crap, with my eyes all puffed up.

I think my husband will take me to the super Walmart tonight if I am

up for it. There are so many things I need and its difficult for me

to get out on my own, hell I cant even drive for any length, much

less push a buggy full of stuff. We'll see how I feel. He was

going to take me last night but I didn't feel like it. We'll see.

It will be just the two of us and that might be kind of nice.

Finish a sentence without interruption. Might actually find out

what is going on with one and other.

Let me know when you are having your biopsies, Jac.

Love,

Chrissy