FAILED SURGERY

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This is a rant. Hit delete or skip to the next message if you

don't want to hear it.

It has been four months since my surgery.

My stats are posted at:

http://www.fourlane.com/mgb/mystats.htm

I have lost 37 pounds in 4 months.

I lost 11 of that with the diuretics given at surgery, so in

actuality, in 4 months, I have lost 26 pounds.

That, folks, is a failure. I do not care how you slice it,

dice it, or try to get around it.

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WARNING: Please DO NOT write me any shiny-happy messages

about " at least you're losing. " See the stats page.

http://www.fourlane.com/mgb/mystats.htm

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And as for the difference in my appearance, you may note

that I lost 17 pounds in 3 weeks on my own,

without drugs, BEFORE surgery -- which is 5 times faster

than any weight loss produced as a result of the surgery.

However, I have a picture-perfect gastric bypass,

according to xrays and tests.

Yet, I have been TORMENTED for FOUR MONTHS, losing weight

so slowly, and only losing if I ate less than 700

calories a day.

As soon as I stopped watching calories like a hawk, the weight

has gone STEADILY UP, as you can see. That's me. That's my

body.

Yet we aren't supposed to have to diet. That is the WHOLE POINT

of this surgery, isn't it? And the weight isn't supposed to

come back, right? I want to shriek those last three sentences

somewhere, but the echo would only come back to mock me.

Yes, the MGB is safer, faster, easier -- I'm not

trying to say it isn't. There is no better alternative.

But now, for me, it has failed and the only solution

is another surgery. That's the bottom line, so now DOUBLE

the risks. (The RNY, etc. all have their failures, too,

and the risk from a second operation after RNY is even

greater. I'm just whining about *my* personal issues.)

For over a year, trying to get the surgery, getting

the surgery, and now 4 months post-op, my life has

been on hold, consumed with this solution that has

become a torturous nightmare -- a carrot on a stick

that just keeps moving a little farther away every day.

Now, let's up the ante even more: if you lose 30-40

pounds and stop, then your BMI will be below 40 and

insurance isn't likely to pay for a second surgery,

either (that *exact* thing happened to another woman.

Right now, my BMI is 36.4 I don't know if insurance

will pay or not).

Just something to think about. You *might* be one of

the people like me. The mental anguish of this failure --

after a lifetime of suffering, seeing a solution, and

seeing it fail -- is extraordinary.

And before anybody sends me their astute assessment that

I'm depressed, I am *on* an effective anti-depressant

as I write this.

Kind regards,