BOO

[Guest guest]

Boo:

I hope that you will read this, and know that you have certainly not been

the first of us to be called drug seeking, I'm sure of it! I always worry

that at some point this might happen to me, and I try really, really hard to

only use the medications that are given to me, and not go to the hospital,

unless it is way, way beyond what I live with every day. With your health

history, perhaps you could start with a new doctor. There are lots of

compassionate doctors out there. There is no need for you to choose to live

with this type of pain. I hope you don't mind me putting in my two cents,

but I didn't like the sound of your message, especially at the end. You, in

your heart know how much pain you are in. It's easy for someone else to

stand by and think they know more. Don't give over that power to anyone.

Please don't give up, and please write to me privately, if you want to talk

more.

HUGS...

Robin

[Guest guest]

Robin....

Thanks for the info. I know that I am probably not the first that

have been called drug seeking. But having someone say this to you,

or about you.....is completely demoralizing. But you can be assured

that I will have to be on my death bed and not know that I am at the

hospital for me to ever go back. This in itself is sad considering

that I sat at my desk at work today with tears streaming down my

face because I couldn't move, I was locked into one position. It

finally released a little bit, but I am still currently an 8/9 out

of 10 pain scale. I can move very little without being in

excruciating pain. I would love to find a new doctor that is

compassionate, but unfortunately " compassionate " is not listed under

their name in the phone book. I still have 4 patches left before I

will have nothing. Even with a 75patch on, I feel the pain as if

someone was stabbing me with a knife, right at the bottom of my rib

cage to the left of my stomach.

As I drove home from my " demoralizing " appointment yesterday, the

thought of throwing all of the patches on at one time to be over

with it.....did cross my mind. But I could never do that, so you

don't have to worry about me in that respect.

When I left my appointment yesterday, the doctor said " at least they

said you don't have a tumor like they thought " . I turned to her

(crying profusely) and said " no, you're wrong.....I wish that I did

because then I would KNOW, and then maybe I'd see an end to it all,

and then that a$$hole could sink back into his chair and eat his

freaking words. " . But somehow I don't think that it would affect

him, he has no feelings.